Tuesday, January 22, 2008
sad,
mad,
defintely not in tact.
broken.
outspoken.
never open.
scramp,
vamp,
where will there be the lamp?
to remove my troubles,
my worries,
were they not to be?
it was my passion,
until.
those defamation.
i cant stand all these
it's making me pissed.
my heart so amiss.
lost,
hoarse,
to kill you with claws.
im just so b
ro
ken.
i just cant imagine it.
why do it and hurt me.
the outcome you did not see.
my heart you broke,
a word i spoke.
never enough.
i just cant take this inside of me.
its just infuriating.
so frustrating.
where is the love
cheer me up somebody.
tears will drip slowly.
drop by drop,
the agony, the pain,
all ignored.
left to face
the world
alone.
tiredd and sleepy
Monday, January 21, 2008
haha this shall not be an emo post as a request from a lot of people!
hmm havent written in here for like terribly long la.
fyi, i was like kinda away at oep having fun at shanghai WOOTS :D
got to know my classmates better i guess.
enjoyed myself.
acted SLUT.
lol...hahah
FICTITIOUS FIFTEEN :D
haha birthday passed on 18th, thank you all you ppl for the smses as well as the tags or friendster, whatever, thank you a lot manxz :D really appreciate that, like how people thank you for being a great friend.
be happy so that they can be happy ;) haha.
i really thank you for all these stuff la. haha.
thanks for the cakeee in the restaurant xD
thanks for the celebration DA YI YI!
thanks you mummy and dadddy for the party ;D
thanks zac, bran, shane, douglas, xuanqi, sze, nong, ben mok, stan, amanda, cheyenne, zan for coming to my party i really appreciate it.
and yes rachel!! haha the stupid random tagg haha. calling me stupid or sth crazy hahaha. its quite cool okay!
and
you, thanks for always being there for me this past year. you turned fifteen first a few days earlier haha. (: i hope we can talk more than this. you know xD
and you. thank you for being such a great and like nearly best friend la. although you were only at the party for like 5 or so minutes i still thank you that you were able to make it :D sorry for letting you hear what my mum said last night! it was like not supposed to be heard ah well. talk again soon alright? and your phone! haha just take the sim card out and borrow my phone la (: take care alright. and dont make me worry so i wont make you worry haha. SMILE. and have fun in what you do.
and you keeping that secret haha. i doubt you actually ready my blog in the first place haha. you might probably come here soon. thanks for going out shopping the other day haha. we should do that sometime soon but just let our parents know. HMM. a lot of like people find you sweet eh! haha. i even had one friend that asked whether you and i were stead or sth! HAHA. xD was quite amusing. thanks for coming (:
ah back to school its crazy,
finished my history thingy and exceeded word limit by 300 words!! hahaha.
got some chinese projects coming along some TING XIE. BLEAH haha surely die already.
GOODBYE <3 Je T'aime.
looking out of the window,
staring and the sky,
so high,
where all my troubles go.
they fly away,
ever so free.
of to play,
not missing me.
quiet,
and tired.
my body says goodbye,
and sleeps tonight.
i love the silk,
i like the openess,
i love you
and you yo do too
Thursday, January 10, 2008
depressing
suppressing
angry
upsetting
infuriating.
and.
hating.
pissing.
hungry.
frowning.
moaning.
tiger.
staring.
scaring.
is.
running.
sprawling.
dead.
ENDING.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
where was the passion?
definitely out of fashion.
doing that examplarary
surely not contemporary.
coming to school early,
going home late,
it's turning horribly,
driving much hate
i dont enjoy
any of this duties
my life it does spoil,
i wish it would cease.
if this would end,
i would be better
in the crowd, i blend.
and i turn happier.
happpy and high
Sunday, January 06, 2008
its been a while,
i can tell.
where we used to get so high
and wished to fly.
on a cloud nine,
breaking rules getting fines,
was just about the thing
with a stylish fling!
walking about,
having fun without a doubt,
doing random and being crazy
is what i wanted to be.
taking a breather
from a killer,
seems to be insane
and a little lame.
it sounds impossible,
although plausible,
that is how i live,
and its a myth.
i keep it a secret
in my room i crept
out into the world at night
which was, ironically, bright.
bright with the red light,
bright with a fright
it kept my heart pulsating,
and gave my ears ringing.
something was amiss.
certainly not a bliss.
i just kept there.
and went no where.
watching quietly,
being a little sneaky.
i tried something new,
something of a fool.
it was wrong,
but just give it a try.
it was another step to his evil ploy.
price paid would be deadly and long.
he destroyed his life
with a knife.
and he died
on that fateful saturday night.
he lost his conscience,
and bubbling with remorse,
although God's creation,
it was a life lost.
emoooday.
Friday, January 04, 2008
numberonelate.
numbertwocaught
numberthreeaccused
numberfourlost
numberfivesacked.
whyohwhy?
if i had not gone for the duty none of these would have happened
i could have just freaking went for ncc and get someone to replace me
tears nearly streamed down,
i was sad alright
its so screwed up luh,
you didnt need to make that fucking statement
seriously, its damn pissing
you cheer until your voice like mine then you talk to me
why cant you see? you blind eh?
seriously ah, dont be sooo ego, although you got that fucking post
argh. damn stupid
and not what?
tie, WHICH IS NOT EVEN MINE, goes missing?
well done you are shit.
seriously freaking shit
damn stupid la.
ohmygawshhh.
gonna die.
its that easy
just die
thats it.
stupid.
death.
world.
bye.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
i feel like a fool
and it's cause of you
this seems so stupid,
cause i think it's cupid.
its so fast
till it seemed it never last.
school has begun,
but has forgotten the fun.
lessons and teachers,
such scary creatures
indeed, it is crazy
cause of the you and me
if only there was not such thing
such relief it would bring
a happy song i could sing
ring-a-ding-a-ling!
i could be sombre
i could be blurr
but its not of late
that's enough said
running quickly and rushing
my heads heavy with a crushing
why does it start today?
is that all to say?
another day to pass
yet one more to last
through, we may be tired,
but we still need to be fired.
believe in yourself.
have a little faith
you might not need wealth,
step out of that cave.
once you have done that,
you finally have understood life.
and once, in life you strive,
you have made me glad.
happy new year!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
its been the time of the year again, the beginning, where people would say the year passed so quickly, so fast. a year, three hundred over days, 262800 minutes, and probably millions of seconds. time really passes quickly, unfortunately. there were times you wish time could just quickly pass by, and you would disappear and fade into the world. on the other hand, there were times, where we rush for projects, we want time to stop, just so because we can finish everything, catch up on our studying and things like that. BUT time moves on no matter what.
"24 little hours" quoted from a song of Jamie Cullum, mentions about time being little and small, and it does not move along as you wish and explaining what a difference a day had made. mainly about love
this year had been one of ups and downs. SOMETHING in the beginning in the year, those stupid auditions or whatever it was. i felt it was so crazy, all those backstabbing and stuff, and somemore just before my birthday, how horrible i felt. being rejected by my own team. it was such a
terrible experience. i admit i was EMO, i was sad, i was upset. just before my fourteenth birthday to be spent like hell, i think it was crazy. aiyah stupid politics, and the quitting and stuff. i think it was appropriate la. i didnt want to spend my time with a group of people, or particularly just one person who sees me as useless, thinking he is so great, and with the arrogance. ah, i still remember those tears streaming continuously, running into the rain. probably from much of the exuberance and enthusiasm into bitterness and being barren. running out from the gate in the rain, and thank you ryan goh for chasing me out (: it was kind of sweet for you. i guess breaking down like that had not been such a great idea, but briefly i just decided it was it.
OEP at malacca was quite fun. 2.2 im gonna miss you like %^&*(*&^%$ you really have thought me a lot, getting to know my new super great friends like bestie! hoong, and i guess everybody else luh. it was really a great, close knitted class. enjoyed myself thoroughly, with nong stan and ben mok too! ah. amos ming kang, everyone la. chongker, everyoneee. haha. hmmm getting back to oep. haha. from sitting in the front of the bus. being quiet. being silent, eventually opened up to this group of people, felt a little awkward but not anymore. seeing how close the rest of the people were, i just made up my mind to go join them. i sat with them at the back of the bus, got to know the ppl better (: i think it was hoong bubbles chongker and me and basil. yeah all of us sat at the bus. it was quite fun lah haha. we really had a ball of a time talking together, knowing one another in a close and personal way. the various activities, the occasional spirit of being rebellious, cleaning that house, the hotel, not being too bold, did not follow the rest in climbing out of the window, rooming with aloysius. WOW. so many things at one camp haha. aloy falling sick. trading songs. sleeping. swimming, waterpolo. FUN. haha. talking frienships, building relationships. CHEATING-swapping the cards with hoong and sabo-ing ppl hahaha. it was quite fun luh. then going to the funny tribal dances.
my birthday, a holiday! haha. after oep in a high spirit, we decided to go out to erm plaza sing or sth. where amos bubbles hoong and i! we went to meet at macs or sth. i think i was late hoong was waiting for us. or sth. there was the ben and jerry ice cream haha i got treated or sth (: haha. they wanted to get me a present but i think i said no. haha. it was a really fun outing going out together. EH. let's do that again next year! haha. i think it would be quite fun luh, wait it WILL, as long as we are enjoying ourselves. not spent by doing much things. my family and i then wanted to go to shaslik or sth liddat but cause i think i had a tummyache or sth i wanted to eat sth light. so we went to cofffee club ate and went home. i think i got some clothes from parents haha.
cause of my tummyache, i did not go to school the following day! haha. amos said that my dream came through and i was like whatever lah hahaha. in the beginning i guess i was super guaiii, like sitting in front of the class, listening to teacher like a lot a lot, my art was quite terrible in the beginning. learnt from david lui, eventually improved a bit i guess. had much fun. haha. the first term report was quite good lah hahaha. i think that was about it for that week or so?
OM. mr bill chia the great coach! haha. thanks for being such a great coach, treating us to the PIZZAs. and giving us those pep talks. although you did not know much about OM, i think you did a great job (: haha. ALOT OF OTHER STUFF. i wish i could talk about but i got to sleep soon ):
jia, shaun, paul, isaac, rohan, marc, joel! TIM!!
you guys have taught me a lot. i will never forget you how great a team you were, although you were the sort of people who were quite slack, we eventually managed to slug it through right? through much persistent screams from sir, as well as madam and TIM. ah. yes a great student coach, one of the best (: haha. thanks for parting with your chi-ching and coming with us to US, i really wonder what we would have done without you. haha. really, a blessing to us :D ahh. jiayuan! your mum bringing all her nice pork ribs and the food. ohhhh my goshh. the food was damn nice. and you were also really friendly (: you were truly a great chinaman, and an asset to the team, we really enjoyed having you a part of us! shaun! the leader, which al the others wanted haha ( i wanted to be leader lehhs ) haha. anyway, you were quite awesome, bringing the team together, although slacking a bit for your softball and stuff. haha. it was quite fun knowing you, chatting with you haha (a bit luh not much!) PAUL, haha. i still remembered how you managed to piss everyone off by going for your tennis and not helping us out! haha. you and being sadistic with your teachers, nearly getting that demerit point, arguing with teachers and stuff! haha. you have trained me with my tolerance! haha. quite fun knowing you la. isaac! ICEBERG! FATHER TIME! haha. the person which supposedly had the deeeepest voice haha. it was quite good that you were on and all that, YES your spon it was like so good! haha i think i learned a bit from you! haha. you are so good la. you will go far (: (although i doubt that you are reading this hahah) you contributed a lot to the team! your mum too ;) haha. ROHAN haha. i still remember you headbudding me haha. you and being really pro at soccer. moving steathly at night, making it so difficult to see you! haha. and also being a great devil, i didnt think you were that evil though. haha. but in the end i think you were great. haha. none of us would have done a better job, although paul with have been quite a great slut! hahaha. MARC, you rich guy, painting with your nice fcuk teeshirts, really joke around like nobodys business la haha. quite fun lah. you all claimed to have made me like slack, although being on was quite fun, but in the end still being asked but in the end still being asked by the seniors to do work! haha. TIM. i wonder what our team would have been like without you, i guess you were kind of like the one who anchored our team together! haha. ahwell, so it was a blessing that you came to help us. if not we would not have even got passed nationals la haha.
collin! rayan! dhanesh! imran! being so good at your spon. and teaching us all. haha. we miss that. haha. where are we gonna find such great people next year? haha. awhh. ahwell, i wished i could talk to rayan more. this year, i hardly got to talk to you la )): sighh. nehmine can know you better next year okay? haha. when you finally go for your army and stuff haha. COLLIN this saturday on alright? haha TSK i havent even got courts yet! haha. ohwell. haha. a great om senior as well as choir one! ah. we ALL will miss you alot! haha.
CHOIR. gosh theres so much to write i think i will write it out another time, i better go and sleeep now. of course there's like SHANE too! i really thank God that i got know you this year. and you being such a great friend (: haha. i need to write your card! haha.
AND GOD. thank you for such a great year, i thank you for all your blessings. i thank you for taking care of me. of my parents, how my dad nearly got to an accident. its all your blessings, and through your grace that we are made the way we are. although, i did not really do much devotions, you still rewarded me, dear LORD, please help me to do more of my devotions please? thank you for giving me a fantastic year LORD, and i pray oh Lord that you will make 2008 an even better one where i can learn to be more like you and in your stature. i pray oh Lord for my friends and that you will take care of them, and guide them through your terrific masterplan.
AMEN.