(: smile when you can.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
(: smile when you can for you dont know when you will die.
hhas.
i havent blogged for quite a while.
have been swapping blogs here and then
but i shall permenantly use this blog (:
so many things happened within the past week/month.
finally you forgave me (: yay!
hhas.
but at least we are good friends again!
yup.
after all the pain that we have gone through,
im glad we are together again.
phew.
studying history.
but want to take a break from my books.
wah.
got so much to study in so little time.
gosh
i got dunno how many more subjects to study. x((((
okay going for a run soon.
so seeya i guess.
will blog more regularly after the final year papers end. (:
smile while you can. (:
dumb crap.
Monday, September 25, 2006
hey,
i changed my blog again since she set a password.
blah blah blah...
lol.
i just dont want her to talk to me anymore.
i just want to think that i never knew her.
shes just so unfeeling/female doggish (i dont believe i had to use this word to describe her)
she just hates me. she hates me like what.
yay! at least i manageed to say to her what i need to.
that i hated her.
i really couldnt stand hidding all me feelings for her.
shes so bad.
the worst person i have ever known.
even my enemies are not as bad as this.
im just super super pissed with her.
i dont believe i fell for such a person
if i had known how she was going to be.
but she fell for me.
and what.
she said what i like the fake her.
and i hate the real her.
what bs!
how can a person have a...what...real and fake part of them.
yeah right...
you are so female-doggish. haix.
i dont want to say that word.
but you know what?
i really hate you.
the hate i have you for you is overwhelming my liking.
bleah.
i just cant stand you anymore.
you are gonna be the death of me!
i liked you.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
heyhey.
such a wrong time to blog.
its 1212 now.
hhas.
i liked you. but now i dont.
i used to think... but now i dont.
i felt so happy but now i dont.
i had enough of it but maybe not.
i miss you yet i dont.i knew why i liked you by now i dont.
i knew why i chose you by now i dont.
i believed in some things but now i dont.
i never knew you would be like that but now i do.
you made me
happy (x
you made me
cheerful ;D
you made me really
important :D
you make me
sad x(((
you make me
disappointed D:
you make me
regret =(
you make me
the world's saddest person :((((
i was asked to consider continuing this relationship.
but its too late.
all the things that happened,
happened to quickly.
and caused what we are today.
good day eh?
is that what you said.
good day. more like hell day!
lol.
why say something like that?
im typing crap. excuse me for that.
bye.
okay...
Friday, September 22, 2006
hey.
a quote from someone's blog with some of my analysis:
You had you chanceYou blew itOut of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take itAgain, and again, and again!!!!!!!!
okay. i had the chance and i blew it. and must you put so many exclamation marks? is it that much of emphasis asking me to shut my gap? to make me shut the hell up? i wonder...okay. i think thats
your favourite song.
and then earlier on it was cool but it was all pretend. we did share some moments of happiness except it was a really short while before some things got out of hand.
Another quote:
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first timeI'm so moving on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I wantSince you been gone
okay...yeah. After im gone then you can breathe. so..that means what? it means i didnt give you any breathing space which means that you now must be really happy that i am gone, i guess. doesnt it mean that? then how about "thanks to you, now i get what I want"? sounds like you used me to get what you want, but you didnt. there were some fun times together but you went a bit overboard at times. especially when i just dont reply for a while and then things get a bit the out of hand. how many times were we supposed to "break-up" but we didnt? there must have been a few lah. we probably couldnt stop thinking of each other. but this time, i think you really went too far. i think its a bit overboard...especially the part where you actually lied to me and only after i asked you the second time then you told me the truth. i had been a bit demanding at times...but it was nice knowing you, seriously, not what you meant when you had said that to me...you had been really nice. you gave me happiness when i needed it. you cheeered me up when i was down. thanks a lot for all that. but it would have been a lot bettter if we jus part ways after this. we could go on but... it would'nt be really enjoyable after so many things that have happened. sorry. if there was trust we could have still gone on but i feel we were just hiding things from each other and we lost trust in each other-the worst possible thing that can happen.
haix. trying to get on in life would be the next hurdle. bleah. after breaking up, you get all the post trauma and all those stuff which can be quite horrible. what to do? i guess that would have been the only way right? the only thing that i can do now is: study for tests...bleah. got so much to study for. what a headache! but yay! art is over. hhas. i had a friend that failed his art last term. looks like it IS actually
possible to fail art. art is like not the subject you can fail one what right? but last term, i was 2 marks away from failing ;D at least i passed and the teacher helped to moderate our marks! thanks alot from a 52 to a 63. but this time, during the art exam, i think i managed to tackle the art piece
properly. lol. at least should be able to get at least an 80 for art! hhas. hopefully lah. its actually possible to get full marks for art which can pull up the average percentage like what lah! hhas. it could be a real advantage or a miserable disadvantage, like what happened to me last term. hhas. hmm i hardly blog in paragraphs. its usually those short line kind of blogging. maybe this suits me better. hhas i dunno lah.
okay. lets see what elsei can talk about. hmm...yay i did geography today. i did all those maps. wah so many maps to remeber for the test!!! aiyah. i guess i
miss you still....but nvm. bye then.
goodbye.
goodbye.
what a way for it to end and it did.
i dont care if you read this or not.
i had enough, more than enough.
when i went out with you,
you didnt smile,
you were so dull, so unhappy, so serious
i felt so uncomfortable.
i wanted to give you up
but i decided to give you another chance
and now what?
you are treating me so unhumanly, so undescribable.
and now should i give you a final chance?
i doubt it.
even if you give me a thousand good reasons, i
will still say no.
i had enough, more than enough.
you brought me happiness before
but you brought me sorrow too.
i thought you were nicer than that
but i guess i was wrong, terribly
wrong. horribly wrong. you should
have at least said something nicer when i was about to say bye.
thats so unhumane.
i guess its for the good for both of us.
i bet you cant stand me anymore, neither can i.
you have to focus on your studies, so do i.
i guess thats all i have to say.
okay. somethings should have never been written =X
okay
im really sorry for writting all these.
=(
i really regret.
i guess should be enough to hide the past.
bleah
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
hey....
im in such an off-mood.
so many things happened today.
so many things that mad me really sadd...haiz
why must good things always end up badly.
last few words:
any last words before i leave
you better not blaim nat for not telling me
good bye JOEL JARYN it was nice KNOWING you
that was the last of her.
she was so dull. so serious. so unhappy.
so unlike me.
i dont like ppl like that.
it is simply just not me!
damn it.
you wanted a reply
but there were so many adults around me.
you expected me to talk to you?
nvm.
i just dont like you anymore,
although i once did,
im sorry things had to turn out like that
but sorry.
i cant stand it anymore.
if you want me to forgive you,
to make amends,
the answer is
NO!i had enough of this rubbish.
this utter crap.
im too young. too immature.
i wished things were back as they were before.
before any of this happened.
the ache in my heart i feel.
the pain it brings.
cannot be expressed.
nobody knows
except me.
i wished...
wishful thinking.
today was the worst-possible-day ever.
20th september.
i will remeber it for life.
bye.
shocked.
Monday, September 18, 2006
hello!
i am waiting for my bus now which just arrived..
yeah.
today was really special.
hhas.
im so happy!
yay!
i got into the next round of being a prefect ;D
yay!
only like 28 ppl managed to get in
from the previous 37
and i was one of them.
x)
im so happy!
yup.
so today i stayed back for life science make up class of the make up class.
yes. i know its really complicated.
bleah.
but it was for the students that missed the make up class during the hols
which explains the meaning of it lah.
yup.
okay.
3 more stops till i reach home.
then got chinese tuition
then i got to study!
-do life science and geog.
hhas.
got my whole evening planned out.
lol.
yup.
AWH.
im so sad. =(
BELGIUM did not win the fed cup.
but italy did.
they came back from 1-2 behind to beat belgium 3-2.
thanks to the lousy singles player
and the lousy doubles players...:(((((
bah.
okay its my stop now.
ok. i am walking back now
and typing at a rediculously slow pace...
lol.
okay.
hmm. wat shd i talk abt?
yup.
just now, there were a few, oh wait, all of them bought i-scream yogurt except me...!
but there was someone who wanted to treat me...
but i turned it down.
its so ex!
2 dollars for the regular one and 3 for the bigger one.
its like the ramly burger.
so expensive but it tastes nice.
okay reaching home now. finally!
dont want to blog anymore.
hhas.
bye.
ohmygosh!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
hi...a rant:
Pourquoi devez-vous me visser en haut ? Pourquoi oh pourquoi ? je me demande vraiment,
Vous avez ennuyé si dans la mesure où vous allez à mon espace de msn et dites alors que l'ensemble baisant le monde de mon histoire fichue ? Vous pensez que très amusant l'est ? Je me demande vraiment ?
Huh ? Que si amusant ?
Vous gérez juste pour visser cette vie de la personne en haut. Qu'il. Et je vous parie le trouve l'amusement..
Son déjà long allé et j'ai failli oublier de lui. Mais vous l'amenez en haut encore ? Pour que ? Donc vous vous assurez que tout le monde sait ?
Je n'a pas d'espèce d'idée pourquoi vous devez des choses de tel ? Vous condamner ! Gah..
hhas.
so happy i got it translated into french.
lol.
they even translate profanities.
bleah.
if you really want to find out,
go and translate for yourself.
bleah.
bye.
what a fit week ;D
Friday, September 15, 2006
i am so happy with myself ;D
hhas!
ran three times this week!
-the most ever!
yay!
i ran on sunday, wednesday and today (friday)
hhas!
feel so proud of myself lol.
so today was a short day
after school i had an oral examination for my final year
then we had our uyo, as per normal...
yup.
that today summarised.
i felt i did really well for oral!
i was quite calm and i hardly make any mistakes,
although i did make a few minor ones.
the reading aloud was quite good,
i think i can get a 10/12 at least..
then for the picture conversation,
the teacher like cut me quite a few times!!
and then she asked me a few questions!
i dont that's a good thing...
but i had an intro,
and then mentioned a point:
"I feel this is a condusive environment for learning as there are many pictures of plants and animals which can stimulate the children's minds."
and another point:
"There is a girl in speghetti stripes who is sitting on a swing. I feel that this girl is very daring as she is not holding to the handles-this could also be very dangerous as if she had not been careful and somebody and pushed her from behind, she would have fallen and she could injure herself."yeah.
then the teacher interrupted me and posted me a question:
"Do you think this is a good environment for a school?"and i replied:
"As i mentioned earlier, this is a conclusive environment for learning as there are a lot of painted walls which can stimulate the children's minds and if their parents would like to take a look, they could just take a walk down to the void deck and take a look at what their children are doing."yeah. she said that we were moving on to the next section: conversation.
she asked:
"What kind of toys did you play with when you were young?"and i answered:
"When i had liked something, I would probably be very engrossed with it, and stay with it for a while. I used to like Ernie when i was younger...I felt that he had been very appealing to me. I used to collect different types of soft toys of Ernie. I had ones that were really small and ones that were really huge. Then I began to like aeroplanes when i started growing out of my Ernie phase. I used to collect different types of planes and up till to day, i still collect model aeroplanes. I remembered once, when i came back from London, I had bought a D-I-Y model where I tried to make the plane. It had been really tedious but once when you have completed it, you will feel very happy."
seems really long eh?
then she aked one more question and i do not want to record it down...hhas.
yup.
so during PE today,
we had soccer.
i usually sit out ofor these kind of activities.
i dont really enjoy it lah.
but today was an exception.
i decided to join in to play soccer with some others.
hhas.
the first part was not really fun lah.
but after a while,
i caught a loose ball, took aim and shot.
and...
GOAL!
yay!
my first goal since primary 3...
im not a very soccer person,
as you can see.
but after that,
i was so happy! ;D
i felt as if i was at the top of the world!
i was really rejoicing,
jumped around a bit
then got back to the game...
in the end, our team scored another goal,
and we drew the match,
2-2.
yup.
then just now,
i came back from a run,
a new route,
just trying out.
it had been quite tiring,
cuz of uphills and DOWNhills.
but no paul twohills...
hhas.
that was damn lame!
lol.
anyway,
the new route had been quite physically exhausting.
i was quite tired towards the end,
but i ran thrice this week x)
bleahed interview. wishful thinking.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
bleahhed.
the interview was damn screwed up...zzz...
argh.
damn it.
i know i could have done better
but i didnt,
is that sort of feeling you get/have on a bad day lah.
its just pissing off
:((((
i know i could have been lyk a thousand times better,
if not for the nerves
but didnt everybody go through
that?
gahhs.
nvm.
its just that i knew i could have done better
and at that point of time, i could not do anything about it..
that probably the worse..
i felt...
on the way home now...
just not happy.
some words to describe how im feeling now:
regret. hope. wishful.haix.
maybe can try again next year...?
hhas.
bye. may blog again later?
a quick post
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
hello ppl.
this blog was featured on blogskins.com on friday the thirteenth of January!
hhas.
okay.
got to do work really soon.
anyway,
i watched forbidden city today!
it was quite fun!
hhas.
i lyk it quite a fair bit!
althought the stand it for kit chan
couldnt really reach the high notes...!
hhas.
sounded really off!
yup.
so other then that,
forbidden city was actually quite interesting.
but,
during the first part,
it wasnt really captivating
and i started sleeping.
lol.
until somebody woke me up.
thanks! hhas.
i was really sleepy!
but cant let 40$ go to waste so easily right?
hhas.
i seriously got to go now!
argh. work. damn. lol.
bye.
the-number-13
hello!
this is going to be my first blog post!
yup.
hopefully you will enjoy it.