MUGGGGG.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
i really need too get a lot of cups
so i can mug successfully.
okay i must rant here.
how much i hate myself for like not studying
omg lor its like so freaking irritating lor omg.
i need to start studying
i need to do my math.
i need to do my chinese.
i need to do my GEOG ( its like only in damn short a time!)
which means i must cover the whole syllabus by tonight
so i can revise all the rest of the stuff.
argh.
exams.
why must there be exams to grade you?
omg
its damn sad.
cant they just mark you on your like daily exams.
haha.
anyway, on thursday i went back to serenity park!
omg.
argh, the memories.
those cool memories.
the
memories remain in my heart forever.i will miss the place.
all my friends there.
all my memories there.
all my
heart there.
hmm, quite sad :/
ohwell.
saw arielle. and im now like taller than her luh haha
its like so cool
she used to be a head taller than me but now
well i overshot her :D
haha
im already 171 or like 172 cm i think
haha
i think im going to overSHOOT my mum soon,
like a
plant (shoot)haha. that was damn lame luh. tsktsk.
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but its quite funny lol haha.
alright. hmmm pun.
reader, i will PUNish you :D
where i keep my puns?
PUNdora box
where do you call when puns are flying all around and ppl are getting sick of it?
PUNdemonium
which animal puns a lot?
PUNda bear
what box is the most lame?
the PUNnet square
which object is the most lame?
fLAME!
which artist is the most lame?
richard cLAMEderman
which shampoo is the best?
PUNtene.
whats my favourite song?
SHOT IN THE LEG!
where do ppl who lose the luggage to to?
the baggage cLAMEing area lor!
alright i think i well exceeded my quota (wait im QUOTEing all the stuff:) right nong? hahaha.
no one else knows. building 429.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I'm not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I'm broken
I'm broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I'm falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again
I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can't see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I'll leave it in Your hands
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms,
Ohh You hold me in Your arms,
I know that You'll hold me in Your arms
Again
-----
arghh. JOELYAP!
why are you here?
shouldnt you be studying?
the exam is ONLY one week away.
you have been studying quite hard for the rest of the year.
JOEL! it all boils down to this alright!
all you have been waiting for is arriving.
PLEASE STUDY!
arghh,
just hang in there 2 more weeks
and it is all tv.
i should really ban myself from msn and tv.
two super great distractions. omg.
tsk. anybody want to sms me like crazy?
i will try to reply! haha.
my phones like so dead this month rarely touched luh.
omg.
STUDY PLEASE?
I BEG YOU!!
"dear jesus, please please PLEASE help me to study.
"I believe you". I know you will deliver me through this situation.
i know you will take care of me and my needs, and my aspirations.
you know what ranking i want to get in class.
(even though if i want this, it doesnt mean that im like so obsessed about getting first.)
i just want to try my best and hope you do the rest!
i need you to accompany me thorough the following weeks and the rest of my life.
indeed i am useless without you.
but with you, i am everything.
"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
then, nothing would be impossible.
and you will help me through this.
all my accolades and awards are because of you, LORD.
none of these would have happened without your grace and lovingkindness (:
i know you will be there for me even through the darkest times,
LORD. i need you, i want you. i want you to be there for me.
i want you to be my best friend to stay with me forever.
AMEN!"
well i hope a prayer helped, i hope it does, it should anyway
okay now i should honour my commitment.
offline i go!
STUDY!
Saturday, September 22, 2007
arghh
cant seem to make myself focus on studying.
i guess i shall go on a
HIATUSnot that im feeling bored or anything.
but i really
sighh
so irritating
i cant focus
i cant stand it.
its just so
irritating. cant bother to study.
just really no motivation
although exams are in 10 days!
arghh. dammit. but theres really really awful thing pulling me back.
i have to dl to software for my printer.
cause i need to print my notes!
hmm
what to print?
geog 5, 8,10 (6 and 7 are with jon ng (teacher) HE STILL HAS MY FILE!)
ahhh.
history 9
phy sci 10yep thats about it.
andand,
i have to practice chinese!
and practice maths!
practice english!
LIT-maybe not yet haha.
mug geog, history, life sci, phy sci.
hmm life science is damn sick.
the awful photos and all those stuff! dammit.
okay i should type out questions jon ng asked.
stayed over at godmas house
i think her ferrari is cool :D
haha. okay this is like the only post about my life haha.
played tennis like after the geog lesson.
and THANKS BEETAT! for giving me drink xD
haha.
cause i didnt have enough money.
ohwell :S
i rarely did any studying there lor!
i should start doing the questions he asked.
i really hope i do well for geog
i spent like so much time on it luh!
10% is how much my software dl thingy has movedso irritating. dunno how long it will take lol :/
i feel it is quite a great accomplishment:
170 comments in friendster and 170 friends
hahaha.
:D
lol. okay that was so random
hmm i feel inspired by a friend to do a to do list after exams!
1. GO OUT with classmates!
2. have an om party
3. not go for ncc sea!
4. not study till a long long time.
5. watch a movie
6. stayover at a friends house on a school day!
7. lol shopping?
i still rmb my aunt giving me some money...HAHA8. i want to get new earphones!
9. i want an iPhone! haha (AS IF ITS GONNA HAPPEN)
10. i want to sleep
11. i want to, contrastingly speaking, stay up for one whole night (anybody want to do that with me?) hahaha.
12. i want to pon school :D (wish only luh)
13. think of a possible combi for ip?
14. to INVITE FRIENDS OVER TO PLAY TENNIS (although im not that good haha!)
15. learn a new language (yeah right!)
16. pray for all my seniors doing IB (how holy right?)
17. write a note to them? (haha so sweeet!)
18. BUY A NEW TIE. from ms grace or whatever. (i need to return peter then my tie!)
19. try to get another collar pin (thanks marcus! i need the badge for as long as possible!)
20. wake up at 7 and still get to school on time!
21. sleep at 8 pm :D
22. complete all the above tasks.
23. send everyone on my friends list in friendster a comment! (thats 170 comments alright! its so scary! hahaha)
24. borrow dvds :D
25. i think thats enough right?
haha.
hmmm hopefully can complete all of the above tasks.
shall try to keep an eye on what i have done or yet to do.
hahaha. xD
STUDY NOW! :D
Labels: study
ooops
Thursday, September 20, 2007
haha i forgot sth.
HOONG AND AMOS CAME TO MY HOUSE YESTERDAY.
haha. and we played tennis.
was really fun to have them come over :D
haha we have to do this again :D
alright, i feel like sleeping now.
STUDY!
art is OVER!
hey!
art is finally over. for like the rest of the year.
or the rest of mylife :D hahah.
i think.
and i got this thing that i was like highly recommended to try the ip art course.
its actually going to be quite fun lol haha.
i wish lol haha.
i think i kinda screwed up lol.
poor time management skills! haha.
andand i think im FINALLY DONE WITH MY NOTES HAHA!
which means i have the following left lol haha:
ENGLISH practice papers, go through past papers.
LITERATURE NOTES. haha more character analysis. haha and i guess practice more or finish that prose thingy which i left undone haha.
MATHS practice! 5 papers at least lol haha.
CHINESE practice papers!
GEOGRAPHY MUG! haha.
HISTORY MUG!
LIFE SCIENCE go through PPT slides.
PHY SCIENCE MUG and UNDERSTAND!
haha now that arts over i hope the rest of the papers go well haha.
top four subjects are practicing
and the bottom four are well mugging haha.
lol.
i thikn i should do geog and english today lol haha.
but i think maybe i should do maths as well lol haha.
feel quite sleepy now lol haha yawn...
shall have lunch haha.
SHOULD I DO ART NEXT YEAR?Labels: study
LAZY! >D
Monday, September 17, 2007
okay sorry people i feel to lazy to post today haha. so i will just copy and paste comment from friendster i sent to brandon ang. haha. i made this crazy deal with him lol. to like send 5 comments to him everyday xD haha. alright:
(thanks bang for letting me see this, although i didnt ask you! haha :)
okay people: this is from bottom up so have fun reading alright! fyi, the pic is me with shane (: haha.
Posted 17/09/2007 07:51
- THANK GOD! yeah...so he kinda cancelled those stuff up. i was like damn relieved luh. was damn freaking scared lor. haha. anyway, my class prefects were made to like see him after school in the end!
omg it was quite scary alrgiht. its the 3rd time im seeing him (like that kind of situation) in this year alright! it was damn freaking scary luh haha. caused nishad did this analysis. out of the 5 of us (prefects in our class), 4 of us have spoken with mr b, 2 of us have got warning forms and now all 5 of us are down to see him. what are we in for?
omg a thought struck me. SUSPENSION? omg i was feeling damn scared luh. i nearly thought i was going to get suspended but like thank god i didnt get suspended in the end :D haha. looks like i get to runaway another day scot free (like i did anything in the first place lor! haha x)
take care okay! :D and write to me soon! haha.
JOELYAP!
STUDYING :D
Sunday, September 16, 2007
hey!
right im studying again haha.
came up with this kinda complicated studying schedule haha.
i hope to complete all my notes asap haha. preferably by like wednesday
then i can do HARDCORE revisioin haha.
why did i decide to caps that?
hahah lol okay >.<
hmmm. planning to do more geog later haha.
i must finish all my notes lol haha, then its easier to study lol haha
haha. i got this 22 page geog chapter to summarise later lol.
currently its blogging, trading songs with a friend, listening to music and well, msning haha.
lol this is so random blogging about the randomest of stuff haha.
i think i should go on to friendster soon
oh crap.
i am supposed to get a hair cut!
and i am supposed to write a letter to mr b.
shooots.
haha. looks like i have to stop blogging soon lol haha
alright another five more minutes. i was kinda upset just now.
cause my mum was busy buying so many stuff and in the end shes till didnt make use of her vouchers -.- tsk lor haha.
omg i was kinda pissed luh cause my mum took forever to choose the stuff and i just wanted to go home.
to study luh of course. i dunno why i am feeling nervous so early and like studying so fast.
i guess the rest of the ppl are relaxing still.
but i just want to do well this term :/
try to do the best that i can.
and let god do the rest.
haha.
i love lighthouse <3<3 haha.
they are really nice
esp you and me.
its slow but the words are like so meaningful lor haha.
2 more minutes haha. lol.
nearly done luh haha. KT Tunstall is also quite good lol.
haha. although her songs are like quite old haha.
had lunch at this random vietnamese place haha.
my parents didnt really like it but i thought the food wasnt the friend rice
was actually quite good lol.
kinda enjoyed it!
then after that, after shopping, we went to lucky plaza.
omg that place. there was this woman like damn whore one lor.
she was like flirting around with so man. omg it was damn sick luh
i never knew such people in the world existed haha. sighh :/
okay i think i should stop now haha. i better get started on my letter
simplicle xD
Saturday, September 15, 2007
i change my blog url yet again! haha.
so people please relink xD haha.
hmm simplicle haha.
the idea of simple or simplicity just came into my mind luh haha.
so i came up with this random name.
ohwell :/
update from p____fects:
i got a warning letter :/
ohwell. quite sad luh.
i kinda hate my committee
ohwell. just dont really like the people there.
although i think some are nice, not all are.
and i am not supposed to be blogging about this.
but ohwell. its not that i hate being a prefect.
I THINK PREFECTS IS FUN OKAY!
just that i got a little sick of it.
ohwell. i think im quite sick of some people inside.
i dont feel we are doing well as a committee.
i dont think that we are like very bonded as a comm.
we are not moving together towards a similar goal and purpose.
we are not moving as a board.
some people might are moving forward.
some people are still hanging on to the back of the pack.
so ppl should just wait for those people who are at the end
and not just go on even more
and then the gap will be like even bigger
and then like people will still be left behind.
they feel like strayingaway
ohwell. things like that happen right?
hmmm.
and also, erhh...i dont think it was suitable that mr B was the right person to do it.
he shouldnt be the person saying all these stuff
cause hes not the person that is like closest to you
theres a reason why its called PEER APPRAISAL
and not teacher appraisal right?
ohwell. quite upset luh.
even though they said that they discussed it altogether before,
it still doesnt mean that the people shouldnt go down as well.
it wouldnt be so....personal. :S
i feel it would be nicer if trans were there
or like people you knew better.
then it would truly be called peer appraisal and it would be more personal
i think they lack this "personal touch in them"
well...
finally i got rid of the italics.
and i state my point again.
i do not want to put my board down or anything
but i just want to express my cares and concerns
and that i am quite upset with the way things are run.
but sometimes the relationships, friendships and camaraderie developed is truly
phenomenal! its just amazing how people, from knowing nothing about each other
can become good friends.
okay. haha. wished i could blog more lol. ohwell, haha. going to stay home for dinner. theres this really good food :D CAUSE MY MOMS COOKING! shes COOKING PEPPER CRAB HAHA! going to be really yummy and tasty haha.
all i need is you x)
Saturday, September 08, 2007
this post is dedicated to my dearest friend. x)
HELLO!
havent talked to you for such a long time.
haha. it seemed to be in ages last i talked to you like properly haha.
i miss you i guess. ohwell :/
well i dunno luh.
like we havent been talking for a really long time haha.
and im wondering if you are even going to read this but ohwell. :S
its okay luh haha. at worse this will be archived lol haha.
etched in the memories. haha...
mmm last year when i saw you haha.
all those really mean remarks i said,
and like i guess all those misunderstandings.
those so called arguments and all that.
all were finally settled.
then this year when we had so manyyyy things going on
haha. like so much so much stuff going on.
you being so involved in np
me in choir om what and what nots xD
still rmb those deep and dark secrets where you shared with me
which i still havent told anyone yet and i promise to keep all these things to myself forever.
or as long as i can luh that is :D
i still recall getting caught by my mum several times talking to you and all that haha.
and like getting banned from comp and msn and all those stuff haha
but guess what? i still continued to call haha.
hmm...its really seemed to be in ages since we last talked.
youve been doing your own things,
ive been doing mine,
we seem to have drifted really far apart.
although we were really close once before when we would sms everyday? haha.
hmm....seems just like ytd.
but too bad it isnt.
ohwell.
i really doubt you are reading this post lol haha.
when was the last time you tagged haha.
seemed to be forever.
still recall me emoing to you about so much stuff.
all those stuff where id keep to myself
and sometimes cry about :x
and still remember all these things.
haha. seemed to be really near.
why do things seem like they just disappear,
just strayingaway so slowly but surely!isnt it so sad? couldnt things be as they were.
but
changed is constantso does it mean things couldnt be as they were?
or are things just meant to be changed?
but wouldnt it be so sad?
i hope you really read this post!
means quite a lot to me.
bestfriend(: <3>all i need is you
the click five you're scared
it shows
been there
your not prepared to be
in
lovewith me
so soon
'cause you've been through enough to havesomething hold you backwe dont need to go that
farlet's hold on to where we are
if it's real we'll make it through(:
cause all i need is youthey say
dont waste
your time
they're obviously blind
so let's
forget
the words, the thoughts
they put into your head
don't give up just yet
we dont need to go that far
let's hold on to where we are
if it's real we'll make it through:D
'cause all i need is you
we dont need the world right now
we've got time to work it out
hold on tight ill hold on too
'cause all i need is...
*readthis(:
baby, maybe we should start somewhere
(gotta start somewhere)
and baby, let me in your heart
(let me in your heart)
before we fall apart
we dont need to go too far
let's hold on to who we are
if it's real we'll make it through
'cause all i need is youwe dont need the world right now
we've got
time to
work it outhold on tight ill hold on too
'cause all i need is you
all i need is you
all i need is...you
one year through
Friday, September 07, 2007
hmm reflecting on the past.
well. one year back.
i was kinda despiced by my friends.
i was the goodie-2-shoes.
i was the super guai boy
i was the guy who would stand up for justice (not tt i dont now)
i was the guy who would report my friends if they played tablet games
i was the guy who would abide by rules (not that i dont now) haha :0
i was the guy who
didnt have many friendsi was the guy who was
sadi was the guy who would be damn happy when my friens tablets get confiscated(after telling on them)!
i was the guy who would be really happy if i got into prefects because thats the whole thing i was living for.
i was the guy who was
sadhmm. prefects.
i was very on.
i was very interested.
i was very happy.
i was very contented.
but now?what do i actually feel deep inside?
prefects. why did i join prefects?
where was the that passion i needed the most?
i was going through such a tough time.
i still remember breaking down in class.
i still remember standing up for justice.
i still remember being hated atwhy?
because i stood up for the truth.
but now?
where has this gone to?
has it just flown away like a paper plane.
will it fall back down on me?
will i be
that enthu again?
sigh. ohwell.
has been talking to my nominee.
really reflecting last year how GUAI i was haha.
sigh i wish i could still be that guai and have good friends.
but i guess its really difficult to handle such stuff.
i still rmb being taunted by like sk or sth like tt haha.
like was really scared. haha.
and was like scared.
but this year i found out ruggers are nice :D
really nice and fun going ppl.
would i have found out about this if i were like that then?
i really wonder...
sighh. tis quite upsetting right?
wouldnt life be so easy if you were able to balance personal life (friendship) with character?
sighh.
its really difficult to such a thing right?
but i think as long as i am happy and the relationships that i have built over this year are meaningful?
seriously why not continue having friends like that.
those that will
stand up for you.
those that
believe in youthose that are your true friends.
on a final note,
selection camp was so slack.
but ppl did not make use of this opportunity, well.
they could have made better use of it.
sighh.
i hate it being backstabbed :/
i sympathize with you annie! :D
i also dislike ppl who are arrogant
those that think they are better than the rest of the ppl.
i still rmb having a hearty talk with collin in the bus the other day.
i still rmb talking to him about an om team being very arrogant.
haha. sigh :/
pride comes before a fall. isnt that so true?
i still rmb. i think one of my nominees in my class looked down on stan.
few days before they asked stan whether he was actually up to it.
little did they know that the other 2ppl in my class didnt get in and stan did.
hmm. isnt this moral so evident in this situation? haha.
quite scary right?
but what am i to say this?
to judge ppl like that.
i shouldnt be writing those stuff.
yep. i guess thats about it.
byee take care reader :)
tears and rain
jamesblunt:
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.