yo, world!
the hustle and the bustle,
between me and the city,
destitute of refuge
a turn to return.
émotif
Thursday, August 23, 2007
émotif is french for
EMO and that is what i am feeling now!
arghh. i just feel so pissed luh. with everyone especially ...
omg luh. today was so
fucking screwed up sighh. cant stand it pfft.
dammit. okay.
so i woke up at around 640 today.
was not really late rushed and all that.
got showered, still ontime.
but got pissed with maid ohwell. shes not really at fault luh shes helping me do sth somemore eh.
(i asked her to help me paint my berms black cause if not i would get screwed and suspended from becoming a prefect)
so usually she would do it the night before but today she did it i think just a few mins earlier and like there was
PAINT all over luh.
so like my hands were so dirty and then it caused my shirt to be dirty as well luh haha.
so well...was quite pissed off and couldnt stand the stains all over me.
there was like swimming today so i had to -last minute- pack all my stuff like trunks goggles etc. and then also had to bring like
number 4 as well luh. so like it was quite late luh. then couldnt find my wallet when i think it was in my pants. ohwell.
so like all these caused me to only be like
slightly LATE luh. but wth.
MY FATHER LEFT WITHOUT ME ON THE CAR!
was like damn fucking pissed already luh. couldnt really stand it >< style="font-size:85%;">would that really make any difference?
come on luh GAHHHH!
i feel like leaving house again although the last time i didnt really leave home luh.
but still luh pleaseeee! argh.
you just want to laugh at me being late right?
want to see me fall?
like a devil sticking his trident out waiting for somebody to trip.
maybe some part in you was just a devil?
(p.s. i havent really had a decent with my father YET. he screamed at me just now. dont feel like taking car with him anymore just go to sch by myself things would be so much easier for you right? tsktsk. )
i just want to leave this world and disappear from the face of the world and act like i never existed.
so it was 7:12 then,
if i had taken any public transport i would definitely like be really late luh.
so like had to walk!
(ironically, walking is the fastest way)
haha. so like i rushed and walked or like strolled as fast as i could.
and cursed and swear-ed as i walked. really couldnt take it anymore.
i felt so emo. i felt so pissed.
and i was like hugging on to my horrible plastic bag with my useless number 4.
argh. IMT was such a waste of time.
i couldnt stand it anymore. i somehow
wished i was dead. that i would be knocked down by a car and then die or like just slip and roll down a hill.
was reallyreally emo luh.
couldnt stand it eh.
so anyway, just walked as quickly as i could.
then eventually i managed to reach the mrt station.
i just took out my shoes and wore my socks as i had really no time to wear them at home. i was rushing all for you, yet i doubt you saw that in me.
ohwell. so i just basically rushed a lot luh.
and at 7:25 i was still waiting for the bus.
hoping and praying that it would come reallyreally soon.
after wearing my socks and praying.
THE BUS FINALLY ARRIVED!
like thank God luh! haha.
so i rushed into the 166 behind a long queue of after latecomers.
i was so scared! i was didnt want to be late! and some more i am a prefect leh! how can a prefect be late?
yeah luh i was really scared :/ hoped that i would be able to get off the bus on time.
and guess what happened when i left the bus?
there was a freaking red light luh!
read man. sighh what to do?
be late or jay walk? so i just jaywalked luh.
or jayran. haha.
ran as fast as i can.
and then i saw cherems and douglas (prefects and student councillors) saying that theres hope you wont be late if you run! so i was like just run and run.
i walk like omg. thank God. at least i WASN'T LATE!
haha. was really like thankful that i was late late if not i would really be damn upset with myself.
but the next step was even more challenging. getting past the dp luh.
omg it was damn freaking scary lor. cause i still needed to get pass to my duty spot.
then i saw the dp walking ard. so scared luh
i was like a mouse running away from a cat.
lol no offense gideon! hahaha.
lol yeah so i was freaking scared.
really needed to walk past.
so i just walked behind him.
ANDAND. while i passed the staircase, i bumped into peiyi and daniel yee (good thing they didnt see me or else i would really get screwed luh haha cause theyre like super on prefects haha)
so i just dugged down and (still holding my bag with me)
and scurried forward.
i just put my stuff behind a pillar,
and my shirt being reallyreally dirty,
i just looked as if i was doing some patrolling duty.
and then i guess i passed off.
haha. then i think the dp went to the toilet then i quickly just dumped my stuff behind a wall and quickly ran up to the duty ppl. haha. i think wait, THOUGHT i was okay.
but to my surprise, no i wasnt. i had like left my stuff behind the wall. then i saw the dp talk to the two admin heads about sth,
and somemore in front of my bag eh!
i thought my bag had like a certain problem or sth like tt luh.
so i quickly walked pass to the other side of the corridor. phew. haha.
then i asked them if they checked toilets then ask them to check again haha.
so i sort of like got away with it!
lol.
but in the end during uniform check i got caught by OSTRICH wait EMU about my hair lor.
its not freaking long lor. comeon! stop being such an idiot. my sideburns are barely touching my ears luh no need so pms right.
so i got caught still well.
heck luh i dont really give a damn anymore.
so that was pretty much today.
yesterday i like screwed pledge up haha.
and i was like over-ly enthu haha.
like said it with alll the sheng diao and so clear! haha.
then the ups and downs as well
i sounded like a freaking chinese scholar or an idiot! haha.
haha. well. i screwed up some part of the pledge infront of well 3200 ppl.
tell me not to feel embarrassed luh ohwell. haha.
at least i got over it.
that was such a long post i think haha. 1209 words! another long post!
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