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#286, nostalgia.

2009-10-18T22:47:00.005+08:00

a tinge of nostalgia lingers,

yet nonchalant i stand,

oblivious,

from boy to man,

east to west,

rant to rant.

rush of emotions,

choking on tears,

yet giving that ear,

drops of joy,

drip by drip,

i ponder.

here may it stand from

year to year,

emblem of grand -OMCHOIRPREFECTEXPRESSIPPHILEMONSIMEONNAHUMNOAH- forever,

the regions round echo the roars,

of ACS forever,

well two years left,

eons right,

a lasting impact,

commenced with something light,

clinging on,

yet letting go,

makes you torn

between what's been thought

and what you know.

2009-10-10T16:26:00.002+08:00

urgh, this sucks la, im supposed to be studying and biochemhistoryamathcmath2chinese, aiya can leave the last one out its quite useless, haha i need some venting point mannnn, chem is driving me nuts, i wanna score my seven but i cant be bothered to study my gosh, so freaking irritating, roar, i need to focus and do well, get at least like 42 + bonus haha must do well for my chinese too, urgh. while other people holiday P: hahaha, i shall mug my ass and DO WELL, roar.

on a side note, the past few papers have been quite good thank god :D haha so awkward blogging after ages.

as i flip the pages

i glance,

as images

flow endlessly,

i prance,

on my toe,

ready to attack,

here i go.

week 11 in a nutshell.

2009-09-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

well oh well,

its the holidays again

i may say,

hmmm,

holidays :)

friday

met with LINA to do matthew's present, i shall go upload photos soon hehe :)

then saw the church youth to catch the time traveller's wife, i thought the show was quite awesome although i missed like the first 20 minutes of the show cause i was late, i like the perspective of the show - being the viewpoint of the wife, instead of the typical magical man. was quite interesting la :) pretty cool on how the were playing on the theme of time, hence the title.

hahha, and then i talked to the churchyouth for like barely 5 mins and then i ran over to cine to meet serene lina and bran to catch coco before channel! omg the whole freaking show was in french with the exception from some english from an english, there was like so much rubbish la about the girl, so much sex, and sex vs love, omg all the sexual motifs so disgusting.

sat

had edge whoopie :) pastor jeremy preached about by faith, i thought the last part about the thousands really spoke to me a lot, i believe in your word father :)

sun

well, normal morning service and all haha. random, yet fertile searches for cookies AHHH D: stupid ahaha, yay me pepper lunch, omg pepper lunch is so awesome man! it was my inaugural testing of pepper lunch, and was a resounding success. yummyness. at least my stomach was happy,

then met lina brandon and esther :) haha omg random arcades banging on the buttons, driving, fun, and desert omg! haha LINA IM GONNA MISS YOU :) haha READ THIS OKAY x) haha gonna wait for like a few months before i see you again ): haha thank god for webcam then hehehehehehe :) wheee. okay anyway, photos hahaha, crayzhee random lockers, pulling, pushing, squeezing faces. HAHA, fun & highneccessities. :)

mon

ahh tennis match in the morning, specs tournament, HEH, i was like 8-3 down or sth, then i think we lost track of scores - we decided to count from 7-2. well anyway, i caught up from 7-2 to 7-3, to 7-4 then my opponent went one up to 8-4 but i managed to pull off one more service game to reach 8-5, i thought i really stood a chance there but my opponent kinda stepped up, played super shoddy serves, OMG so sickening, i could ahve just finished him off, but little did i know, i finished myself off in the process making TOO MANY UNFORCED ERRORS. urgh, my service was pretty bad too, and just allowed him to attack my second serves. bleah. well, i guess it was one heck of a learning point la so its not that bad :)

then matthew came half way in the match, thanks for watching me, although i admit, it was exactly a fine showcase of my tennis talent ): hahaha, fail. anyway, he came over we had lunch, randomly uno-ed AND LINA! i gave him the present, he likes the teeshirt woots. :) i guess our hard work/effort finally paid off lol :) hehe,

well, then milton and harold came over haha, todays so long! we played a bit of badminton, haah i pwned them :)) hehe, and hmmm, ate waffles at haato with my glorious royal chocolate :) hehehe, played scrabble - stupid hc peeps stole our tiles, we had so few tiles to play with la. ahah then guitar heroed.

YOU ROCK!

im beginning to enjoy my guitar hero mannn :)

haha no plans for tmr :) hehe.

wednesday biking?

thursday running :D

friday COMEX/net!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MATT! :)

surreal

2009-08-31T22:40:00.004+08:00

surreal living,

time peals

a second of tick

tock,

your mind in

a block,

searching endlessly,

what do you see?

hearing words

they say,

wishing they'd

just disappear you'll pray.

off the face of the earth,

you'll jump,

hoping to fall into

the boundless beaches,

seemingly hurt-less

but sears skin;

where have you been?

sun scorching,

back burning,

tears tripping,

can you see me,

oh those emotional scars,

masked by the murky mass,

pretense in the present,

forsaking the future.

learning to bear,

reaching,

yet falling,

drowning;

i can't see you,

i can't see you.

stretching out my hand

like an unborn child kicking,

pushing his way to immerse to the surface

a desperate struggle;

kicking, pulling

while

blood beading down the panting pulse,

in a note of finality,

he sees the light,

those at the surface

'amazed'.

little do they know

how convolution

and pollution

sinks them down

into solace,

surreal yet

surreal.

2009-08-04T00:01:00.003+08:00

we <3>UK

MATTHEW + LINA!! here's your post. :D

thanks being so awesomeee the past few days :)

haha okay, theres your post,

i'll write some poetry

another day,

or so prose,

oh wheee,

yay me.

night :)

smiles.

2009-07-22T20:54:00.005+08:00

the rustling of the wind,

as it blows you away.

you fly in the wind,

as if you are on a runaway

vehicle, twirling

and sinking,

fluttering,

as if nobody would care.

you estranged in the wind,

your mind a

whirling,

blowing you by,

just slowly,

falling,

every

step

too

go.

try,

extending

my arms openly,

waiting to embrace

my grace and mercy,

just cant wait to touch

a time of subtle solace,

yet a search for simplicity,

just look, and you will

find in me,

the wind

mingles with your hair,

stripping you bare,

now you understand,

twittering was not

as simple

as it had

seemed.

the wind

now became,

the window

to your soul,

exposing you,

blowing you apart,

tearing you open,

baring you and your blood,

ruptured by the skin,

the wind destroys,

you waive goodbye,

and the wind

smiles.

as it flirts

with your skin.

deranged,

you tear

and tear apart,

the droplets smirk,

tumbling down ever so thin,

yet drained,

ever so

drained.

you yawn,

and proceed

to the

nether

world,

yet all that

holds you back

are those

smiles.

for the record; recorded beauty.

2009-07-16T21:21:00.004+08:00

i note down my inklings

in a note of finality.

while i record a record,

i record my life, for the record,

to set a record.

in a note of finality, i record.

the articulate ardour

and splendour,

painting a picture of unsung beauty,

or just putting together what's of thee.

point blanc i see.

craving in blur.

2009-06-25T15:37:00.002+08:00

a place in time,

a day in eternity.

i travel the road less travelled,

scouting, i see

landing; here again

despite countless attempts.

well i blog,

haha god's awesome at youth camp through pastor jude! had interesting stories, and thought provoking sermons. made me really think, like about God and all, how great he is to us, ever so merciful, and so awesome, just waiting us to run back to him, and he'll embrace us in ever open arms. (:

he showed me a vision like just reminded me. i originally thought of it before, but kinda half dismissed the thought (stupid devil) haha, but he brought it up again. i saw the light in the darkness. he showed me a path to take, probably not very easily taken. but he just took me through my life to the future, the end goal, and the small steps taken in between. gotta put my trust in him and lead a more God centred life x) haha.

well, just need him so so much, rather than this fleshly carnal skin, outer covering.

oh Lord, just hear my prayer

HI FROM PERTH!

2009-06-09T22:07:00.002+08:00

HI FROM PERTH :D

its kinda fun here! well, duh it is. haha i think shoppings quite good, could be better la, but well cause of some kinda curfew set by my mom im supposed to be at th room like now, but nehmine,

i shall post for five minutes alright! like finally i post hahaha, okay so well, i guess since my last post, i was rather satisfied with my results, could be worst, could be better so i guess i shd be like content la :D

hehe, i like perths scenary and all its so bright, and the skies so blue, the hue is just amazing the spread of the plethora and myriad of colours, flirting with the wooly white magnolia clouds. haha, you get my point!

and the scenary's kinda breathtaking, looking out from the top of the hill, feeling as if you are on the top of the world, (or perth at least) overlooking the city, the cars, the buildings, the lakes, the people, as if you are some great person!

yepp! should come by here if you gotta time :D

will post photos soon!

wish i could send the weather as well, its great with like shorts! and its like 10 plus degreees, slightly colder than aircon weather.

ah i wanna sing w the band.

2009-06-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

post from perth HI

2009-05-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

HEY.

zomg havent blogged in damn long.

but todays damn fun!

EXAMS ARE OVER

okay lets see.

went out w shaun,jpc,jontang,andrew to watch angels and demons SO COOL! haha P:

as in really i wanna go to rome. vatican city (:

one day maybe, when im rich. haha looks like i've gotta wait for quite a while D:

like everything seemed so cool and the plot; woah :O

i didnt rlly like the music though haha tsk

butbutbutbut, IT WAS STILL Awesome (:

hehee, yay!

okay then i went out w cheyenne, and her friends nadine and jolyn to starbucks :P

omg played tap tap revenge w nadine :O

didnt know it could be so fun.

IF YOU HAVE AN IPOD TOUCH TELL MEEEE!

I WANNA ADD YOU ON A FRIEND ON TAPTAP.

tsk that sounded so despo but oh well,

its rllllllyyyyyy fun okay!

haha, lets see, then there was like

finally net ralley.

SO FUN.

we started of w captain's ball

gosh i sweated like crappedted.

tsk, horrid. so sticky.

charis talked about errrrrrr, i know, i didnt forget P:

yeah about how we should be good stewards of christ and we cant be called christians if we dont read the word right?

so true P:

hmm,

and then PIZZA! haha quite th yummy, but i only ate two slices >.<

heh, then played a little bit of tennis lah, haha not rlly counted!

cause it was quite slowww moving P:

but gonna play tmr (or later in like 6 hours)

WHOPPIE(:

heh, and then quite a number of peeeps came up to play guitar hero.

ROAR.

guitar hero is damnnnnnn fun.

just that its more fun w lots of ppl playing,

haha do ask if you wanna play :D

AHHH WORLD TOUR :D super duper fun P:

wah, todays so fun (:

and God was part of it :D

haha jesus shd totally be part of everything :S

haha okay!

CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL; MAHJONG. ZOMG..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA LEE!

(: its been really knowing you in these past two years, since like err watchnight service last year haha. you're one TALL (but im taller by a bit :D) sweet good looking girl (: may GOD bless ya bountifully. and may he continue to touch your heart through this sixteenth year. he's got big plans for you (: and our generation :D

ENJOY THIS SPECIAL DAY AS IT ONLY COMES ONCE IN A YEAR(:

xoxo.

heh gossip girl/90210/heroes is super addictive...

but i still wanna play tennis, anybody wanna play :O)

i wanna get out of singapore.

2009-04-15T22:02:00.003+08:00

i really need to get out of singapore.

all the heat.

its rlly sickening.

like can sweat like shit.

ahh i wish i was in switzerland!

then life would be like that:

hmmm,

i just want the snow factor and all,

the breeze (or at least some freaking wind blowing in your face)

thats the least yknow,

the weather here can make you wanna dieee!!

so so hot.

i wish...

2009-03-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

close your eyes.
revitalize.
take a step back into time.
imagine life was a mime.

one
month,
one year,
five years,
one decade

you were six,
life bestowing alphabets,
and numbers,
toys of building blocks
and tumblers.
innocent as the sheep,
gullible like no other,

living in a fantasy
of cars,
and dolls,
of animals,
and paws.

studies a distant memory

everything awry.

lifes a blur;

to concur?

2009-03-29T10:30:00.003+08:00

happy birthday cheyenne wan!!

its been so awesome knowing you since two years when you thought i was untouchable and all. but i guess you didnt knowing me that well then. haa but im sure we all know each other rather well know haha. hmm.
gosh cant beleive two years passedso quickly although last year was... haha yknw. ehe.

SWEET AND HOPEFULLY SIN...
...CERELY SIXTEEN :D

may God bless you leaplessly and boundlessly this yeat esp for your o's and i pray that you will be closer to god :]

hope this makes up for th card haha!

love story?

2009-03-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

before this post seemingly gets all emo and stuff, i would emphasize that this is not some emo crap. its what i kinda think of today's society and people alright. no offense, if it offends you in a certain way.

so what's it like to be in love?

heh, i wonder why i ask that question,

never been in love, other than God!

but, people my age, i daresay, most have been in love!

as for the serious type of love,

until the marry stage,

i bet none do.

come on, they're only sixteen,

what do they know about love?

what they seem to call love...

or claim to be,

so what if you kissed?

maybe its just the spur of the moment,

sth you might regret?

so be it, if it's meaningful and all.

but i mean, i cant stand it,

if you were to play around,

and to break hearts,

that's utter mean. (although i haven't been heartbroken, okay maybe once P:, but it doesnt rlly matter)

does it mean a lot?

i know love does result in a rush in emotions, should anything happen in the end.

but like,

hmm,

do people not want to be in love,

because of the fear of

being rejected.

lets say,

you like this person and want to give her a rose (or sth)

but you, because of fear, decide not to give it to her.

hmm.

but how can you express yourself, if you really do like her?

okay random statements. hmph.

haha, if you were to say love is not everything to you,

then you cant absolutely say you're in love.

if you say "god is love"

then, love must be the absolute everything you give to the other.

isnt it?

if you were to be half hearted about it,

or you claim to mean your "iloveyou[s]"

when you dont,

you ARENT in love,

stop living in the illusion,

stop deluding yourself.

its only a lie?

horrid :S

haha, i havent exactly talked on the phone for really long,

hmm :S

i should start soon heh.

just talk and share stuff to others,

kinda lighten/brighten up your day.

haha,

when someone misses your voice,

how cool will that be!

just always,

wanting,

to hear

you.

only,

you.

woah :P haha

why am i so scared?

fearful of whats going to happen,

hah, i guess kinda occasionaly

shunned by certain things,

just put off, make you go yuckssss!!!!

tsk :S

somethings are kinda scary.

eew.

love oh love,

why hath you decide to desert me?

nahhh, my parents do love me,

thats sufficient,

shouldnt go into a relationship yet,

haha i would, but not now.

no no no.

until ib?

hrmm, see how lol.

unless someone super hot (and christian and like caring and smart) appears,

TSK, my values sounds so mixed up,

fused and assimilated into a different culture.

love,

oh love,

visit me one day,

be mine,

i cant wait,

for your birth.

to be born,

rather than torn,

to be drawn,

attraction,

attention.

life will change aint it so?

what if life

didnt end

as one told,

but wait,

life's unexpected.

ON THE BRIGHTSIDE, I GOT MY LONGAWAITED SHURE SE310!!!!! (:

1 THINK I HEART FOR NOW (:

2009-02-09T20:53:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED KPK DAY.

GOSH. SORRY OKAY. I WAS STUDYING FOR BIO YTD!

ITS NOT THAT I DIDNT RMB OKAY! JUST HAD OTHER STUFF ON MY MIND TOO! (:

YOU TWOOO GREAT PEPPS,

LETS GO OUT SOOON GOSH, IVE BEEN SAYING THAT FOREVER. (:

*INSERTS A PICTURE* (:

webcammmmpathology.

2009-01-27T23:46:00.005+08:00

I BLOG AGAIN :O

hahha youre gonna hopefully see more of that in time to come.

yessie i got pictures hahaha!

ranndomxzxzx unglammmeestxzxz with cheyenne!

gosh we need to talk more (: like call sometime soon.

haha,

tsk yo, i dont normally twit! ^^

TAKE ONE

#1. okay, haha i look like some kinda crossed constipated freak.

#2. four-ensic puff-thologists :D

#3. gonna eat youuu

#4. cheese!

#5. im so WAN/ONE-ted.

#6. what goes up must come down!

#7. HELLO?! anybody there?

KPK, is still alive (:

RIGHT PEEPS :D

wow.

2009-01-25T01:40:00.004+08:00

in like a million days i finally post.
haha so much has like happened since i last posted.

HRM.
where to start hahaha.
I GOT A MACBOOK :D
alright school started :O you should know...

like went through the norms of CDP,

they always change name lar

haha, at least we got to stay in a hotel.

hahaha,

ROAR.

on one of the nights, they forgot to provide towels,

and i showered without towels HAHA, tsk.

and me birthday passed there too (:

THANKS FOR THE WISHES PEEPS,

alright i should go list the whole list of everyone soon (ENOUGH!)

dont woorry, all of you are important :D

HEH I COULD FINALLY DO SOME NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS (CONSIDERING THE NEW YEAR TO BE THE CHINESE ONE INSTEAD...)

hrmm.

okay, and then i got a WII :D

haha finally after one a half years!

hehehe,

its quite fun,

but will be more fun when i get my guitar hero world tour (:

haha,

okayyy,

BIRTHDAY:

-celebrated with relatives on the fifteenth

-wished by class by a taooopawk (HOW TO SPELL?!) - haha, thank god it was only like ben mok and marcus and ryan. three peeps compared to the whole class, or including phoon or sth :S probably will suffocate hahaa.

-ate at EQUINOX WITH DAD (: yay. i think the equinox treat was rlly good :D my most expensive dinner ever. but i thoroughly enjoyed myself, and the complementary cake they provided us with (: yay ! thank god :D

-AN EVENTUAL KPK ONE, BRANDON HANNAH?! IM FREEE NEXT WEDNESDAY !!!

ZERO EIGHT REFLECTIONS

well, the year started off quite well in OEP,

with a new class of peeps and all,

all in high hopes of a good year,

haha,

i guess it was quite fun la,

just with the occasional insults and suans

hahahaha TSK.

i finally learned to get over them,

haha they will never stop coming.

so might as well deal with it now right :P

haha,

and then,

academics on the other hand was rather S:S:S:

haha, quite the bad lar,

other than maths,

lang arts, history, chinese could have improved :/

sigh, need to work a lot harder this year,

but considered that i jumped 30 points for chem

and like 12 points for bio,

i guess i did improve la,

but not enough,

gosh the eye, bettter memorize.

i shall not embark on the spiritual sector,

haha a lot to work on this year! hopefully.

i need to like start tmr or today everyday with the Lord,

i guesss its super vital to maintain a DAILY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM (:

he's like your best friend,

who in the right mind doesnt not talk to his best friend almost everyday!

WEIRD EH.

hahaha, back to the point,

just need to depend more on the Lord,

rather than your own merits.

I CANT BE TOO CLUMSY, or SWEET (SIXTEEN)

in the past week:

1. STUNG BY A BEE ON MY SWEEEEET SIXTEEN ):

haha, i had no idea what i did too the bee, it just...landed on me. originally it was quite funny, cause i wasnt even sure if it was a real sting, or just anyhow one. haha but once the pain came, i knew that it was a sting ): now cause i scratched too much its swelling! rahh itchy you know. the kinda i wanna scratch so darned hard feeling, but you cant ):

2. FELL INTO A DRAIN, CAUSE I THOUGHT THE COVER WAS ON WHEN IT WASNT, i just fell into that darned deep dungeon. rahh. haha. causedd my toe to screw up a bit, and to scrape off skin on my knee hrm ): i shall upload photos too!

HMMM. OKAY NEXT TOPIC.

hmmm NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS,

1. GET CLOSER TO GOD (: READ THE BIBLE DAILY (TRYING ALRIGHT!)

2. DONT FORGET MY FRIENDSHIPS AND RELATIONSHIPS [:

3. BRING FRIENDS TO CHURCH :P

4. ACADS...... HAHA. ITS STILL NECESSARY...

5. TO MASTER GUITAR HERO MUAHAHAHAHA

6. TO REACH 187 CM (OKAY GRANTED...TWO YEARS. )

7. EXERRCISEEEEE - =) SHENG YUNG! WE NEED TO START RUNNING.

8. TENNIS (JOIN A TOURNAMENT :O)

9. MAKE SOME SORTA IMOVIE AND NOT LET THE COMP BECOME SOME WHTIE ELEPHANT.

10. LEARN TO DRIVE :O (HAHA NOT YET ...)

11. BUILD UP ON RELATIONSHIPS (YES AGAIN... THOSE THAT KINDA HAVE BEEN LEFT HANGING ):

12. ATTEND EDGE REGULARLY.

13. GO OUT SOME MOREE :P

okay...the last few are kinda like pointless. but like

in canada or australia, you can take your driving license

when you're damn young ):

i wanna take mine,

and go va va vroooom (:

okay i should sleep soon.

ooh vivalavida is nice, finally purchased, yes PURCHASED the album! (=

Larger than the moon, my love for you

World collide as heavens pulls us through

The secret of the world is written in the stars,

I'm carrying your heart in mine

on this beautiful night,

we'll make everything right.

maybe our love will catch like fire,

as it burns through me.

Beautiful love - The Afters. (thanks Zanita for introducing me to them, they're rlly good :) - ah yes, we need to go out soon :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAIL CHONG

ON JANUARAY 15TH (IM SORRY IM SUPER LATE! :)

BUT I DINT FORGET [:

MAY GOD BLESS IN THE SPECIAL SIXTEENTH YEAR!

AH YES, WE STILL NEED TO GO OUT WITH ANGE TOO! TSKTSK,

LIKE THIS CNY!!!

WHY IS MY FONT GETTING SMALLER...TSK.

2008-12-31T21:35:00.001+08:00

a glance back at last year,
everybody was super high and all!!
like after watchnight.
mmm tbc....

BACK BACK BACK!

2008-12-29T00:59:00.002+08:00

HEY PEEEEEEEEEEEEPS!
its been solong since i blogged haha,
finally, and frankly, i think this will be my last post of the year,
and this will probably grow more cobwebs and remain untoucched!
haha roar!

hokkaido was awesome(:
preety damn cool and fun!
hmmm yawn. D:

i MUST upload some cool photos soon! hahaha,
roar,

MEERY CHRISTMAS TOO!!!
haha, while its still around lol! haha.

hmmm,
i might have school tmr!
actually i will have,
notice the 29th of december
smackk in the middle of my holidays,

haha i need to have some new year resolutions stuff,
i need to study harder
and chinese too! haha gosh o levels next year,

cant the world just stop now?
while i take my time
to make time pass!

2008-12-16T12:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY (belated) KPK DAY!

yo!

you peeps have been the joy,
that brought be outta the soil,
and into the sky,
to be so free and high,
yet to also enjoy,
the great company,
of you peeeps and me!

its been totally amazing,
through these four months
what jubilance it brings (:
months of fun!

we need to meet up on the jan 8th!
to celebrate the first
kpk day of 2009 ;D
and of many years of great friendship yo!

one word to say to you guys
"awesomely-o-tastic-o-bulous"
not exactly one word!!

on a side note,
switzerland was white and green (ooh the snow and the greens)
and alsoo, youth camp was awesome,
really got to know God better,
got touched by him,
he changed my life (YEA!)
and the church people rocked too (:
so fun time spent as a region.

(: YAP! from MALAYSIA!

SWITZERLAND - BONJOUR, SINGAPORE - AU REVOIR.

2008-11-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

haha, cant wait to go lol (:
so exciting man!
hahaha,
i shall take millions of photos and makesure i iwill go and post all of them hahaha,
heh,

choral exchange wasnt exactly how we all wanted it to turn out to be :/
abit the :S:S:S:S
haha, pasigin was surprisingly alright, albeit soft.
butbutbut credo was
abnormally
OFF,
FLAT,
CLASHING (with our new clashing parts!!! tsktsk)
PITCHY.

haha, thank god gabriel au (sp?) was alert enough,
to help bring us back with our "a scen dit"
apparently our pronuciation is like damn screwy haha. D:
hrmmm,

OMG, MY LUNCH WAS ABSOLUTELY INSANE,
STUPID HUIFANG (ALTHOUGH INNOVATIVE !!)
MAKE ME CHOKE
like was nearly gonna DIE listening to her speak chinese.
i just cant like listen to her speak chinese, was just dyingggggg! hahaha.

sorry, (if you're reading this)

AND THANKS HADI, FOR HELPINGME TO RMB OR PART THERE OF OF PASIGIN.

DANG, THE MONKEY SIGNS.
AHAHAHAHA.

TODAY WAS RANDOM, SLIGHTLY TOUGH.

then went out for LUNCH with random people,
dont really know them very well.

BUT good nonetheless P:

seeyaaaaa on the 15th!

90210!

2008-11-26T01:08:00.002+08:00

haha 90210 is awesome =D
and i've been trying to keep track on teevee.
and not the illegal way. HAHA :X
its been rather noisy occasionally so keeping track can be tough,
try to differentiate between the noise of hte tv and the noise of people!

so anyway,
prefect's camp was rather awesome lar,
rather - due to the presence of a certain someone,
but i guess he kinda redeemed himself towards the end?
like i saw working his ass off reading our reflections and all at like what, 12 plus am!
so mad, and rather enthu la.
let's just say,
his techniques were what we did not really enjoy much,
compared to last year's mark! haha.

hmmm,
i liked the HIGH ROPE ELEMENTS part of it,
altough super easayyyyyyyyye!
damn easy lar!!!! hahaha.
but fun nonetheless,

but dragonboating was da bomb!
haha, although we were struggling in the stormy seas,
literally, storming seas, where the lightning warning
rang twice!
while we STILL STAYED IN THE WATER
(cause it was this kinda like capsizing kinda thing!)
hmmm,
i guess i strengthened bonds with some of my juniors! =D

at the campfire,
got damn high omg, hahaha,
like doing superdupercrazythings!
like shakedabummm !!
haha tsktsk.
and singing with our voices have cracked,
sounding like frogs croaking away
to the tune of
you cant stop the beat,
(BUT I THINK WE STOPPED IT! HAHAHA)

anyway,
i think 90210 is still cool (:
hehehe.

but i should go and sleep now.
maybe edit another time? haha,
too bad there aren't any pictures.

CHOIR DINNER (on sat night)
was rather great,
just slightly draggy at the end
due to the weird change of events,
hrm.

dont think i will be blogging for a while.

HOLIDAY PLANS:
29-8 SWITZ.
8-11 YOUTHCAMP
12-15 FAMILY HOLIDAY, with waisynn,nick,austin,kai&theirfamilies!
might stay after 15 for an extension of malaysia! hahaa...
20-28 JAPAN (: SNOWBOARDING HAI!

on a side note, i like wine gummies!
and and, BUBBLES SMILE (: - although you'd probably not see this, God bless ya (: and you can always sms me :D take care yeah, and dont frown too much, it causes pimples, nahh HAHA.

gone.

I NEED TO PACK.

2008-11-22T14:01:00.003+08:00

I.NEED.TO.PACK.FOR.ATC.

haha, i rlly need to pack for prefect adventure training camp.
cause like it was supposed to start today,
but since had choir senior's dinner and all,
i guess...
hahha its alrightt! haha.
so im only gonna go in tmr morning.

BUT.
THE STRANGEST THING OF ALL,
THAT STILL REMAINS EVER SO OMINOUS.
why the hell did i get the diarrhoea of eating
sane fivestarchickenrice food!
rather than eating weirdedcamp(hopefullynot)horribleallthewayfrompulauubin food!

hmm,
ah damn, the qualms of camp D:
grrh.
i must say i am not too happy going for this camp.
HAHA,
but the friendship is more important than anything else!
so it wont be so bad with people you know and who are gonna suffer too! haha.

roar, i should attend to my tummy and take my medication!

heh. dont be so critical,

must be the stupid chilli.

random(:

2008-11-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

you h e a r t burns brighter than sunshine
coz' no matter what you will always be mine.
looking in your heart,
i will always see the spark.
breathing through the stale air,
yet your frangrance diffused everywhere,
running my heart just there.

heart meeting heart
splints a spark.

step by step.
hand to hand.
lip to lip.
oh, it was needless to speak
damn,
it was so shallow, with depth to lack.

heart misses heart
extinguishes the spark.
and breaks the heart.

the frosty and the frigid air
creeping in through the
frozen walls of the heart.
'nuff to bear,
but...
creating the divide,

all to blame,

2008-11-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.
Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn’t work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

It’s two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it’s not easy,
Easy for me.
It’s two a.m.
Feelin’ like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain’t easy,
Easy for me.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh

I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

hmmm just feeling rather awkward noww,
hahaha.
roar.

eew, i think im like suppressing my feelings or sth.
kinda bad!
ROAR, but why should i feel like emo and all, that kinda thing,
shouldnt be lar =D
haha later like become some kinda REDBLACKWHITE
EMO BOYZXZ
HAHAHA,
IM JOKING OKAY.
but its just some kinda weirded feeeling.

i just cant breathe without you.

WORKWORK, ending ):

2008-11-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

cheyenne and i! psst, we must take more photos! hahaha.

awww, so sad lar, work ending alreadyyy,
gonna mis the people and also like the treats (:
hahaha, its good being the youngest, awwwww, hahahah.
hmmmm,
thanks for the treat at secret recipe,
surely, it was yummy.

planning is quite hard,
especially when you are choosing a place for holiday,
when the choices are endless.

2008-11-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

just need you Lord,
its just really challenging.
i try and try again.
i know you are there,
but do you hear me?
i know you watch my everymove,
you hear my every breath,
you listen to every single heartbeat,
just slowly,
waiting for me to come back to you,
like your prodigal son,
ive been missing for so long,
suffering in my earthly manners,
and totally missing you.
oh Lord,
i offer myself to you again.
i just need you.
i want you to come back
into my heart,
like how you did before.

to be at my side,
to lead me.
to guide me.
cause you are my strength in times of weakness.
my fortress in doubt.
you are my everything.
but im so sorry,
i keep just missing the mark,
im just blinded by darkness,
dearlord,
shine your light,
so that you can
ignite the flame in my heart,
so i can live for you,
and i can burn for you,
oh lord,
the passion.

everytime i step
into temptation,
dear lord,
awaken the eyes of my heart,
to realize that
life is not just all that,
pleasures only last for a season,
but you are eternal.
its not how i live my life,
but how you live in me.

dear lord,
you are my universe.
you mean everything to me.

i need your comfort oh lord,
i need a revelation.

SHOPPING,

2008-11-09T19:06:00.005+08:00

hahaha, i got a topman shirt for like $39 bucks lar, on sale yknow!
haha, my works gonna end school D: BOOO!

edit

at work now =D hehehe,
but like theres not much work left to do,
and the rain's horrible,
the PRINTER CAME IN,
yay to colour printer xP

WHEEEEEE. funn :D

hmmm,
todays gonna be exciting i hope =D
not much work coming in thankfully.
butbut,
i wanna post my photos over lehhh, but cannot D:
haha, i think my phone camera's still cool.

omg super random ytd lar,
church people started taking out their cameras and starting
zilianing.
hahahh, tsktsktsk.

but super random anyways lar :D

but i cant take photo by just holding it the other way round (yknow the camera facing you!) D:
hahaha,
so weird lar,
but if i see the screen i can take photos properly and it wont be blurr and stuff
haha, maybe inexperience!!
hahaha.
i wanna go and put up the photos soon x)

heh,
when i get my photos done la!

replying tags :D
cheyennnee: nahh it was another zann, zanita! haha replied already larr :D hahaha, hmm, i feel so bad now using the computer for personal usage at work, haha ).( but theres like nothing to do!

zanita: hahahaha, go and linkk lar :D haha tell me if you need help linking or sth, it gets slightly boringgg at work yknw! haha D;

HANNAH: haha no problem lar i finally linked you [: hahaha, yes br-and-han, even rhymes yknow so coool 8-)
PRIS: Hahhaa, I know, they are damn friendly to me too (: im gonna get treated lunch on my last day (: hahaha, cant wait to eatt man! haha, (sounds like im actually going to eat some man! LOL TSK.
jem: tskkk why so LAMEEEEEE one, sounds like la mee ( hot noodle! hehehe :)
TheNeo: hellooooo! neoooo! lol, so awkward calling you by your surname, heh your blog very the random eh, go change the lyrics of the songs, relyricist :D
abner: hey abner :D DONE! hows your holidays anyway! haha while im working, its quite fun actually xD
Emil: EMIL! all the best for your ib exams, haha stalker (the only "follower" of my blog! hahaa, i never knew those sort of things existed lol!

and hannah said "hi"

2008-11-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

dearest kewl puffin' klubxz:

its been great knowing you two! (br-and-han)
and i shall dedicate this blog post to the both of you.

friends are like chocolates,
work they speak,
may be bitter,
or or may be sweet.

sweet they are,
their encouragement fetches far.
thank God for their love,
and their care,
looking back,
they were always there.
with nothing they lacked.

supporting you,
touching too.
providing their hand
in times of need,
with money to lend,
and advise to heed.

i will always you both,
not just today,
but yesterday, today,
and to the end of the earth.
of course with the help of
the father above (:

hope you guys enjoyed that post :D

wanted to post a photo here eh!! but using a different computer!D:
takecare anyway!

2008-11-06T13:30:00.002+08:00

IM GOING ONBOARD A SHIP (SEA SWIFT)

AND I HAD PIZZA FOR LUNCH, FOR FREEE =D

HAHA,

edit later!

2008-11-06T00:11:00.004+08:00

wai synn: I LINKED ALMOST EVERYONE ALREADY, haha, i think the font looks pixelated =D
cheyennee: yess i blogg =D and i even reply tags now :O hahaha, has the world come to an end or sth!
PRIS: yeahh i love my pictures too, arent they all just amazing =D haha, i should go update my phone sometime soon, i got new sun/reflection pictures.

haha, i finally replied to my tags :O
woahh,
and i got a new skinnn,
tell me if you want me to link you,
haha, i wanna sleep soon! gosh.

but tennis! haha

2008-11-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

oh the gloomy weather

2008-11-02T21:32:00.009+08:00

afterr millions of years,
im back here,
shall just leave the lj posts for poems haha
and this one for randoming around ;D
hahaha so people im posting again,

i wanna post some pictures hahaha i love and absolutely lovee my phone!

^my work placeee! not exactly there la! but around that area. im a sucker for skies (: dont you think they are simple,whoa-mazing!

^schoool (the ib side) where i did my PREFECT duty. haha prefect has indeed much JOY (and sorrow - a fair bit) to my life. hmmmm, haha. its one year to ib!!

^Austin hills :D haha i went there from last sunday to tuesday.

^my malaysian trip to austin hills! its quite interesting, i loveeeeee and adoreeee the food there la, damn damn yummy. haha, i miss the tennis courts too it was quite the cool =D

^sunrise from my house (: look at the skyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

^my houseee, not exactly, but the view from my house. isnt it so beautificent :D

^while waiting for my dad at the canal, i admired the sky.

^this is quite an interesting picture, i enhanced the red in the picture, and like made the rest of the colours receed. preetaye cool.

^ooh my house, where i enhanced the bluee! haha, looks pretty darn cool yoo! hahaha.

^random picture of work when i was feeling kinda boredd, haha cool ferrero rocher :D haha. but with the random note in the picture, it kind of hints at corruption, while the chocolate shows us how tempting and luxurious life may be, but we might be lured by the attractiveness of the chocolate, and also, the pen pointing at the money appears to be pointing at the focal point, drawing visual focus.

^a youth outing gone wrong, :X we wanted to watch a moviee there! and took train with high hopes, butbut, it was CLOSED D:
(awwww):

a new beginning,
ushered in time.
start of something,
growing in line.

we take in,
we give away,
a while it has been,

if lifes a bliss,
i live a dream.
if you'd give it a miss,
its like a pants without a seam.

2008-10-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

staring back,
prancing forward,
strength I lack,
people i hurt.

the times just past,
days dont seem to matter,
as iron rusts,
i pen this letter.

finding my strength,
at great length,
standing by,
with a spirit,
waiting to fly.

yet stuck where i am,
in a stand still,
and even going down, like quicksand,
i'm such a fool.

ever waiting for a moment,
which will never come,
while lacking form,
it
d i s t or ts.

time is like a thread,
snapping at me,
never flexible,
and how my life,
was never read.
was it to be?
to be palpable?

maybe a pigment,
of imagination,
i claim, with fame.
it is falsely true,

yet i hurt,
yet i say,
yet i pierce,
but im like dirt,
i wouldnt be paid,
oh the tears.

fear of unkown,
the fear,
it engulfs you,
and destroys you.

the fear,
plays around,
and decieves you,
it eats you up,
and comes back round,
what a fool.

yet you would believe,
take a step forward,
yet retreat another two,
on the outward,
but inwards?

twohundredandfifty

2008-08-18T00:32:00.001+08:00

alright im too lazy to post, but i found this in my email.

UNITED KINGDOM NATIONAL LOTTERY
292, Upper Richmond Rd West,
East Sheen, London,
SW14 7JG United Kingdom

TRACK Nº: 51024060210 OFFICIAL PRIZE NOTIFICATION

This is to inform you that have been selected for a
cash prize of£500,000.00 ( FIVE HUNDRED THOUSAND GREAT
BRITAIN POUNDS STERLINGS) programs held on the 14th OF August, 2008
in the London U.K. To begin the processing of your prize
you are to contact your claims officer through our accredited
Prize Transfer agents as stated below
:========================================================
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Email:(uknationwidelott-ery2008@hotmail.com)
Phone Number: +44-70457-49648
=======================================================
contact him, please provide him with your secret pin code x7pwyz2008
and your reference number BCLY:12152008/21.You are also advised to provide
him with the above listed information as soon as possible.

Regards
Mr ANTHONY CAMPBELL
(Lottery Manager)

damn joke luh zomg.
I DONT EVEN STAY IN UK CAN!
wahlao,
some scamming thingy to CHEAT YOUR INNOCENT MONNEHHHHZX.

right, swimming pe tmr,
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT,
not ><

so smelly luh chlorine,

and im still hating coremath ):

memory lane.

2008-08-08T22:47:00.005+08:00

for now(:

haha, i figured it was time to move,
havent been updating here much nowadays haha,
hmmm or not exactly moving there for good or out of here forever luh,
but like, just for as longas it takes lar.

aiyo, i thought everything was over,

prefect reflections
art
biology practise questions
coremath(DIEDIEDIE - stupid trigooo)

about IT.
haha finally.

but at least most of the important stuffs are done.
(:
PROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-DED.

haha sorry random :D

but i think this week was the most emotionally stressing week as we had really a lot of things to do within this short span of a week, last weekend was a killer luh, i had to completed 2557984729854370019 things D: and also FOA thing, haha i think around 9 things that weekend
including some 1500 words essay >< AT LEAST MOST OF THE STUFF ARE OVER (:
HAHA,
i shall end this blog, for now, with a poem, AS ALWAYS.

looking at how time lasts,
remember the times pass,
yet we meditate,
for this time,
let it not sublime,
as its time for change,

as lines proceed,
as pages flip,
our legacy will suceed.
to the lives we impacted,
to the friends we neglected,
sorry we are,
for we've come this far.

now its time for goodbye (for now),
as seconds tick,
as minutes tock.
i look you in the eye,
when i speak,
and when i talk.

its the time again,
a trip down memory lane

2008-07-17T13:21:00.002+08:00

Haha I'm like blogging from my touch now heh, HEY stan!
heh, history is damn boring luh zomgcan die LOL watching some video

Looking at the stars so bright,
listen to my heart at night
feeling the breeze so slight
I am here

I feel so brittle,
yet so little;
I am going to break,
Ever so late

:D
nothing else to write alr zomg

SEC 3 CAMP (:

2008-07-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

WELL,

according to many, the sec three camp was like supposedly one of the tougher camps, but apparently, due to some bob 3 planning which clashed as well, was quite sad haha): hmmm, it so weird im blogging in prose again haha, there were so many talks about council and stuff, kinda made me quite interested, JUST GO FOR IT LAR (:, but yet again, its not us making the decision, but its God, its him lar, i must know that its know my life, but i am a steward for God (: haha, yet time and time again, we try to take over our lives and we seem that we are right :/ but we arent!

vespers was great and enjoyable, made me closer to christ (:

okay, moving on, lets see,
SHOULD JOEL YAP RUN FOR COUNCIL??
haha, post your comments in my tagbox and i shall go see what i can say, i will do my essay surely (hopefully): HAHA, well, its quite sad occasionally, seeing how badly __________ has screwed up sometimes, and maybe if they covered it up, it wouldnt be too bad, however, unfortunately, they didnt, so it was kinda like a big 'boo-boo', and it was really awkward telling ________ in their faces that they screwed up slightly, it would be quite bad, wouldn't it? thats why hafizul and i chose not to say anything, haha. sighh :/ but i dont know if im like kinda suitable for the job, occasionally people say that council is like the epitome of the board, having a different perspective, but what i wanna REALLY DO, is to like CLEAN UP internal politics (hopefully it would leave as _____ leaves.) haha, but i think the real reason why some of us dont wanna run is that because like we are a little scared that our closely knitted group of friends, suddenly drift apart and then internal politics creep in, then people abhor each other then ... (crumble crumble crumble, apple crumble): so saddd lar, we want _________ yet we still want ________, not forgetting professionalism, roar, haha. so confusing lar, so which blanks are better to ________, or ________. haha. ): so random sensoring all the stuffs lar!

CHEER UP HAFIZUL! (: whatever ____ say/s its alright okay, he/she/they always want the best for you (: dont he/she/they? haha. chill alright! dont fret too much over such things, talk to them and i think it should be alright! heh, im pretty confused myself too!

haha, wonder if you would go read P: haha, im so friendly lar (: haha, hmmm, so weird boyyy, such a taboo topic though thats why im like sensoring out a lot of stuff :D ask me if you want some of the details haha, i feel slightly sleepy haha, HMM, i got the acjc concert later haha, i wonder if i should gooo, i got to like have dinner or sth like that later haha, i feel like going to jogggg or sleep, but i wanna play tennis :D

HORFUN :D:D:D
hahaha,
my team raooooowwwwksssszxxz okay!
we were like superrr pro lar haha,
i hope jonno like gets the photos up sometime soon haha.

HOHOHO, i think im nearly done with this post and i should go off soon,

MUN next week, gonna be so darn pretty slack haha :/

welll, our dinner outing was damn funny lar, hadrian and like the whole group originally came into some random restaurant but because it is like quite expensive like, we could not really afford it lar, it was wayyyy too expensive hahaa P: WELL ): hmmm :? FUNNY lar, haha, and we like went into so many restaurants before FINALLY settling on one (:

haha on a sidenote, the food republic at the bottom of great world city is darn cool, they are like promoting ASIAN geography haha, on the top their was like this random map like thingy, with the names of the country, alongside with the longitude/lattitude on the pillars. HAHA, i feel so smart i noticed that =D haha,

post some other time soon (:

ROARRRRR D:

2008-06-30T20:13:00.003+08:00

post twofourtysix.

i :D city of blinding lights!
oh you look so beautiful tonight.
reminds me so much of paris,
i lurbbzxz that city lar,
the devil wears prada! (:
i still rmb that day (:
do you?

haha, this was slightly randommm,

history is DUE on TUESDAY ): next tuesday ): ROAR!

rambles.

2008-06-29T20:54:00.002+08:00

unity,
wasn't it supposed to be?

together,
they were?

one,
in all the fun
as?

friends,
supposedly, forever.

bonded,
and singly-hearted.

work,
which created hurt.

planning,
there they were.

tears,
they shed and bled in fear
of

politics,
they vowed never to solicit.

yet they did.
and thought it was a feat.

What has our world or board come to?

happy and sad

2008-06-27T23:49:00.004+08:00

well, lets talk about ytd!

I WENT OUT WITH MY KINDERGARTEN MATE!

(PRIS!) :D

haha rightt :D

then like went out with seniorss to watch the rgs strings performance;
wonder if they pulled strings to ge the theatre! HAHA.

anyway,

TODAY SUCKED D:

im just pretty upset on how the organization is in the board!
its just so weird you know?
like a moment they seem that the teacher is about everything;
then the next thing, the suspended the whole lot of people without even informing the teacher,
thats why the teacher should ALWAYS be down for whatever suspension,
its kinda like how to cheer the people up,
or play the super stern fellow!

like please lor D:
you dont even give me a warning,
then WHACK WITH A ONE FREAKING WEEK SUSPENSION,
can die lor P:

i hope my mums talk with __ will be able to lessen the SENTENCE SLIGHTLY!

ohwells :/

nevermind joelyap,
cheer up,

its okay to cry.

bottle it uppppppp D:

2008-06-18T16:38:00.001+08:00

There'll be girls across the nation
That will eat this up babe
I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up and
Get down to the heart of it,
No it's my heart you're shit out of your luck
Don't make me tell you again my love love love love.
Love love love love.

I am aiming to be somebody this somebody trusts
With her delicate soul
I don't claim to know much except soon as you start
To make room for the parts
That aren't you it gets harder to bloom in a garden of
Love love love love
Love Love love love

Only thing I ever could need, only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

We can understand the sentiment you're saying to us
Oh,
But sensible sells so could you kindly shut up
And get started
At keeping your part of the bargain aw please
Little darlin'
You're killing me sweetly with love love love love
Love love love love

Only thing I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

Started as a flicker meant to be a flame
Skin has gotten thicker but it burns the same
Still a baby in a cradle got to take my first fall
Baby's getting next to nowhere with her back
Against the wall.
You meant to make me happy make me sad.
Want to make it better better so bad.
But save your resolutions for your never new year
There is only one solution I can see here.

Love you're all I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's
Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for love, love, love, love
Oh, only gonna get get what you give away,
So give love, love
Only gonna get get what you give away
Love.

maybe substitute the love with passion?

BACK FROM AUSTRALIA :D

2008-06-06T15:24:00.002+08:00

yesyes, im finally back from australia,
and due to some deamnd from my readers,
im back here blogggingggg

hahaha, i dont plan to list out like everything ive been doing for the past two weeks,
but i know i should start doing homework soon,
but actually nobody cares right? hahah xD (yes kwok wy :D

i hope nobody begins doing it haha,
or nodody does it in the end haha.
then its great for everyone,
including the teachers haha, then they dont need to mark right?
saves them some precious time to get a life :O
oops :O sounds super mean lar :P
but whatever,
screw chinese larrr seriously,
the friggin 10 newspaper articles!!!

alright, with that aside, lets talk about my australia trip,
okay, well, we arrived on the A380 in sydney!
it was a pretty cooolios plane lar
two huge stories
and the seats were alos pretty wow too,
haha.

okay then my dad and i arrived first,
and we like went to get some see sydney pass,
which allowed us to go to the:
taronga zoo,
aquarium,
the wildlife park
as well as the oztrek
and some tower,
the olympic park,
some shopping area called DFO :D
manly
luna park (some kiddy place)
and
transporttt :D:D:D
on ferry bus and train

haha and we also went to blue mountains when my mum arrived haha.
its quite fun and cold
brhhhh
hahaha,
i think it weent like near 5 odd degrees on like one of the days luh haha.

BUT THE SAD THING WAS THAT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL MY SONGS ON MY IPOD ON THE WAY TO THE AIRPORT D:
was damn depressing okay!
haha, but nehmine lar
its good without music too):

haha.

on a separate note,
I FIXED MY HOME COMPUTER,
haha YAY!
theres like internet working and songs in it!
WOOTXZXZ.
lol ahhlian

hmmmm. so stupid,
coming back to think about homework,

looking at that list blankly,
feeling rather oddly,
having a headache,
only to be filled of rage.
in my heart to page
my thoughts,
and come to my senseless senses.
my brain would rot,
and become restless,
with the usless stanzas.

hoarse

2008-05-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

stare, and break,
from one,
to a million disintegrating plates,
on the run.

trotting from the truth,
looking for the light.
running from the wrath,
relinquishing the might.

waiting for a special time
taking away the past,
hoping to find,
the eyes of the lust.

you could observe,
the eyes with felony
you could conserve.
the smile of catastrophe.

it was just there.
with an eerie stare.

hopeless,
and restless,
was his heart.
oh there he was,
torn apart.

broken,
and soft-spoken,
was he hard,
oh there was was,
full of blood.

deceit,
with recede.

despair,
he would fare.

there he was,
lying still,
without a thrill,
his voice was hoarse.

FUDE XD

2008-05-10T23:48:00.002+08:00

exams are over,
my heart's ablaze.
food was hearty,
and my stomach in a haste.

to quickly churn the food,
using the hydrocholoric acid,
with pepsin from pepsinogen
and rennin from prorennin,
my bio is tested good =D

yummy food dinner xD
shall post the courses.

1. buddha jump over thewall
2. lobster :D
3. pomphret fishhieee xD [I ATE THE EYE!]
4. suckling pig
5. noodles as a nod my head
6. vegatable, on the table
7. ornee (the one and ornee nice dish)

okay enough punning,
and start rhyming

its too late,
so night!

2008-04-28T19:38:00.002+08:00

throwing my dreams,
catching the stars.
smiling and gleaming,
day to dusk.

looking all those things flying so freely,
it's where i wanna be.
ever so happy,
never so weary.

letting go of almost everything,
feeling of happiness it'd bring.
never to be committed,
studies and me never fitted.

it and me.
we could never be.
never,
not even for one second.
never,
we were NOT meant to be,
cant you see?

studying,
what on earth does it bring?
WOW, knowing
y=mx+c,
all those freaking co-ordinate geometry.
or logs,
which just c-log your brain up D:

this is so frustrating,
MAN.
exams?
NO WAY.

happy yet,

2008-04-17T22:00:00.004+08:00

hmm, its so challenging,
a walk through life,
certainly isn't a downhill stride.
an uphill hike,

___________________________

i dont want to do work,
I DONT WANT TO DO WORK
I DONT WANT TO DO WORK
but i shall D:

BOOOH!
a tear of joy,
to combat,
the tear of fury.

WEIRD;;

IM HIGH. :D
JOEL YAP IS FEELING HIGH

i miss 2.2
hmphhh.
i wish life could be 2.2 all the way
loved the ppl inside D:

well, this year, is different
got some nice people,
some, well,
unfriendly ones.

bubbles! BESTIE!!!
hoong!
amos
baldie
chongker
mingkang
CAT! hahah
jerome.
nong!
rawrrrrr.

everybody D:

stop reminiscing
and START studying.

why hang on to the past when it hangs on to itself,
focus on your studies, where nobody is hanging on to them.
struggling,
they need to be resuscitated.
and im the only one who can revive them.

live is not over yet :D
of course not, you silly

GO STUDY JOEL YAP

bi-OH-low-GEEE

or be-HOLD-low geeeee!

SUPERSTITION!
superstitous?
super
stitches
OM-G :D

:D

2008-04-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

okay this shall be a happy but damn random post haha. i think i screwed up my individual oral presentation, i was totally unprepared for it luh, i think i was supposed to run through it once but i did not D: how agonizing was that. next time i should PRAY, gain all my confidence and eradicate all my nerves. sounds so easy said right? but in reality it is not.

STAGE FRIGHT? i never had that before, why did i suddenly get it? NO cannot! im gonna have to become damn talkative. and crayyyzheee xD hahaha. SHOULDSHOULDSHOULD! i must make sure that it does come to past hopefully :D haha. WHERES THE EGO DUDE! ha. alright.

IM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING SOME BIO NOTES. but wth. i dont really give a damnn yo! who cares! haha. it's just bio, it was just my best subject, until i started screwing bio up :/ very saddening! from one of your best subjects, into your worst? ever got that possible? i dont think its like very possibly right? nehmine.

THIS TERM. bio is gonna change, my sciences are gonna (BETTER) improve haha. lets recite what i learnt from chem last night :D

HMM:

soluble/insoluble salts

nitrates all soluble
sulphate all soluble except Copper, Lead, Barium
chlorides all soluble except Silver Mercury Lead
carbonates all soluble except Sodium Potassium Ammonium
oxides/hydroxides all soluble except Sodium Potassium Ammonium Barium Calcium

I THINK I GOT IT RIGHT!
hah mugging does help, but hope it does stay in my mind. and hope i did not screw the chem test up today :/ haha nehmine luh its not counted. MIDYEAARS. im gonna slaughter you! maybe i should have some goal thing again :D hahaha. i always say that, dont i! okayokay, here goes!

Lang Arts 80, 7 - hopefully :D
Chinese 70, 6 - i must work hard bleahh :/
Core Math 85, 7
Adv Math 85, 7
Chemistry 80, 7
Biology 70, 6 -hopefully at least a pass :D hahaha
IHS 80, 7
History 80, 7
Art 70, 6

IM MOST UNCONFIDENT FOR:
chinese, bio.
which means i should start working now hahaha.

alright goodbye :D

smile (:

2008-04-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

hello there,
i know you aren't happy,
and unhappy D:
without a moment to spare.

struggling in the coffin
with all your troubles,
your sins.

its so difficult,
its so challenging,
its so distracting

we believe,
and it will be done.
we just need to.

wha'er we go through,
God will be there too.
because he loves,
that we may love.

his love that surpasses all understanding
has come upon me.
and i do hope,
it will come upon you (:

hey david (:

2008-04-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

hello there.
wonder if you would read this message (:
but whatever you do,
remember your life is not just yours,
but its, like, God's.
especially in romans 12:1
when we were told to offer our bodies as living sacrifices right?

i know you are stressed,
i think everyone is.
you know how crazheee IP life can be from Express.
i know your art too, something you put you heart into,
can sometimes be just disappearing ):
its very upsetting i know,

my art is like shit now too D:
not like it was good int he first place
but because of you,
it improved.
all because of you (:
thanks you know :]
haha,
it definitely was so great having you as my "mentor"
and sometimes, studying too,
remember you gayed tai san while i studied last year
all those fun times (:
how awesome 2.2 was :D
dont take your life away

i know you are like very depressed,
you are very sad,
HANG ON (:
GOD is gonna be on your side,
when all hope is gone,
turn to Him.
He is the Alpha and the Omega.
the beginning (the one who gave you life)
and the end (the one who takes it away)
note that HE is the one who takes your life away.
NOT yourself.
quite sad yknow D:

Jesus will be there for us no matter what.
we just need to turn to him (:
if you need anything you can just give me a call alright!
as far as i can, i will try to help you (:

cant wait for you to be in my class.
its gonna be so fun with you alright.
i cant wait (:

HANG ON THERE DAVID LUI.
WE LOVE YOU :D

CRESCENT INVEST :D

2008-04-01T20:37:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEEPS.
i have not posted like proper posts in a million years.

CONGRATS KANA!
CRESCENT PRESIDENT OF STUDENT COUNCIL :D

so cool la.
looking back two years ago,
how you grew from a vice-chairperson,
to a chairperson,
then like to become part of student council
and finally EXCO,
and president.
woahh (:

its so interesting and exciting to see someone grow,
especially someone close to you,
or who was close :D

haha.
hmmm. the invest quite interesting.
and the sashaying part was COOL :D
haha. never thought an invest could be so un-tensed like.
and like their pledge does not need to be memorised (:
so cool xD
normally it would be so much more complicated lol.
ahh.
no benediction and all,
a pity,
if only God was there.
its so different in a non christian school
cant stand it D:
haha.

they SHOULD have included God lol!
or like
God bless,
or anything like that ):
made me feel like something was missing.

today I SAW:
1. KANA
2. NAT AND SHEENA! (took so long to find you all lol should have done something crazier)
3. Aloycia
4. XiMian and Ariel (GREAT GUIDES :D haha doubt you will see this, but thanks a lot (: you guys were awesome. sorry for taking up like so much time of your lives doing the photographs and all that)

at crescent

----------------------------------------------------

comradeship,
between Stanhope and Raleigh.
not merely friendship,
i would say.

drinking, alcoholism
fear, pessimism
the play seems to be trapped,
impressions being wrecked.

yet, tucking in
all the trouble he's been.
he shows much care,
for his "son" at that lair
Osborne sacrifices his life,
for a worthy cause,
which might land him a lost.

Captain Dennis Stanhope,
gave up his bed at an expense,
for comfort of his "uncle", he'd cope.

They wonder what on earth
they'd do without each other,
since the birth
of camp, to grow and go through another.
The awkward silence
they face.
Sherriff would create suspense,
to the atmosphere, already tense.

Yet, he brings out camaraderie,
through actions, and words they say.
we can see their car and concern,
surely there's much to learn.

:D

2008-03-29T13:59:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO GO SHOPPING! D:

from topman:
1. black trousers $60?
2. white skinnies $108
3. any tee/shirt <$60
__________________
total with discount: $142.80 (without tee)

from zara:
1. cardigan $89
2. polo tee $69
__________________
total: $160 (no discount ):

SMILE...

2008-03-26T19:50:00.003+08:00

..cause joel yap is happy!

HAHA. yay like finally i am happy whee!
4th of april is an important day
cause joel yap is going for CRESCENT INVEST!
(kana, how did your speech go! i will support you okay! :D
fine i hope, or great.
enough said.

the boy gleaming from ear to ear,
nearly shed a tear,
cause of he's a smiler!

its so exciting,
and of course happening,
so anxiety-inducing!
aka school
so interesting,
don't you think!

so many things to do,
yet having to manage time too!
time to play peek a boo
with my worksheets,
the piles, and the heaps.
more to sow, less to reap.

so much, yet so little,
so calm, yet causing a ripple.
a change is about to occur,
a curse caused by a cur.

the dog
the happy dog :D
haha
so random dude xD
haha

my list of things to do:
chinese zuoye, assesmentbook, chineseoral, iop, history, bioprac, chemworksheet, fART!

so little yet so much!
homework at large,
i better flee,
looking forward to being free :D

cheerio please (:

2008-03-16T16:56:00.002+08:00

hello there,
i know live has been stressful for you,
it definitely has for everybody,
i have no idea what you are going through,
but smile, would you?
it would make you a happier person,
yet again, don't smile if you don't mean it, you will be one bad hypocrite ):

sigh i think it's friends problems again ): sigh.
i know what it is like too yknow,
sometimes i go through similar things too.
was like kinda really close to a friend,
some misunderstandings then...
we are almost strangers?
living in two different worlds?
sighh :/
talk to Him and him alright, ha
hope you get what i mean (:

bleahhh.
work is crazy too i bet,
im actually taking time off work to talk to you okayyy (:
or write this post at least.
sighh :/
work is so badd id rather stay at home and go nowhee D:
but live goes on i guess.
despite on hectic lives we still have to live with it.
HMM. D:

dont die alright.
and its okay to cry

a tear or two
from me to you,
though the candles gone,
and you feel torn,
i will still be there,
but God will anyhow, and anywhere.
He loves you.
He cares for you,
that's at least two,
including me right?
i bet there are lots,
definitely smile alright?
or dont drink :P
but drink water,
or a warm chocolate.
it might help.
just dont think about it.
or him...

when you are in need,
go look for Him,
and he will help.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7).

hope this helps (:
<3 Joel.

2008-03-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since I last blogged. Surely I have to say encounter was amazing! Building a relationship with god and all that holy spirit and tongues haha. Surely loved them all. Its has been a while since my preteen encounter and I had fallen out badly with god ans sometimes parents sigh :/ but this encounter had set me free from all strongholds. I only need to fulfill his vision now and believe in him for he wants to use us for the extension of his kingdom :D

CHEERIO :D

2008-03-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

dedicated to a special friend of mine (:

love is like a clock.
it beats like my heart,
tick-tock, bo-bop.
with a sense in art.

love is encapsulating,
ever so attracting.
subtly luring
you into something
in 'change of your lives.
before it took a dive.

you thought:
strangely apart, yet strangely together.
in your hearts and arms, wanting to live forever.

he thought:
how can i catch her eye?
surely i can't be a spy.
set a gaze upon her face
which set your heart ablaze.
your heart glowing
while she was snowing.
i wished she would catch a glimpse,
and make me rinse.
to drip all my love in a haste.

they thought:
lets put our hearts as one,
and play with fun :D
time spent with you,
is more than what i'd rather do.
we were happy.
anyone could see.

then hope grew cold,
that's what we hoped
to never happen.
we were utterly saddened.
the passing of each day.
the parting of our way.
slowly,
but surely.
we were beginning to fall out.
i'd remember that pout

when all was gone,
when we were torn.
the passion we possess,
the love we did have.
it was still there
but we were stripped bare.
struggling with just being friends,
we hoped it will never end.

just that it did.

she thought:
i love you.

he thought:
that would do.

she thought:
its over.

he thought:
oh my dear ):

she thought:
let's still be friends.

deafening silence.

takecare alright (:

crshhhh

2008-03-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

the rustling of the leaves,
the rumbling of my tummy.
the tumbling of a colony.

a little may lead to another
another may lead to something harder.
yet lead to emptiness of the child of that father.

something concrete,
nothing complete,
anything to commit?

to say you a father of a nation,
like a doctor to a patient,
they are of a 'closely apart' notion.

to lead men,
with time span
which would never land.

a promise to break,
the love to hate,
to remember to forget.

was our relationship so shallow,
as a father and child
we wish it were never dull.

this sudden cramp
might be the last lamp
before the revamp.

falling apart

2008-02-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

look at my heart,
its tearing apart.
at the slightest,
at the darkest.

broken and torn.
ever gazing forlorn.
at a life,
which took a dive.

where is the good?
I wish, I could.

looking at the stars,
falling and fallen.
they never last.
i fail, crestfallen.

looking for the light
in spite
of the pain
or the bane.

where is the good?
I wish, I could.

we try our best,
and we left the rest.
to our God,
did we not?

we tried, we failed.
in the bitter air,
we sailed
and turned fair.

dont you dare question
my commitment,
or you, will you become
a stranger, a no-one.

i tried to console me,
tried to do good cant you see?
why conform?
when you can transform?

where is the good?
I wish...I would.

WAKEUP.

2008-02-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

JOEL YAP!
where are you?
who is this facade?
who are you trying to be?
somebody you are not?

"why work so hard when you want to quit?"
hang in there joel! :D
you can do it.

"why do i fcuking get scolded for things i only did once?"
come on.
maybe the guys made a mistake.

"why do i fcuking seem like im the punching bag where they vent their anger out on you?"
just take it as a passing remark.
dont let it take over you.
you can last through such things one!
you may be just sinking in their comments.
but im sure you will float one day :D

"GIVE UP LA. why try when you know you are gonna fail?"
i believe in you.
God does too :D that makes two people.
at least i think it does.
God gives us failures for a reason.
we need to pull ourselves up if we fail.
it may seem like the end of the world,
but it's not.
we just need to hang out to our passion and values and interests.

i know you wrote such a long lab report on the subject you failed.
you do like that subject dont you?
you just need to put in a bit more effort.
just work hard.
i know you can do it (:

BESTFRIENDS!

2008-02-21T22:52:00.001+08:00

(dedicated to rachel lee (: )

all the best to you and your ______ :D

thanks justin mo for the message!
You might be best friends one year,

pretty good friends the next year,

don't talk that often the next year,

and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say,

even if I never talk to you again in my life,

you are my best friend and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you and respect you some times .

Send this to all your friends,

no matter how often you talk ,

or how close you are,

and send it to the person who sent it to you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them,

and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend,

someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,

just remember

this

and take comfort in knowing

somebody out there cares about you and always will...

Let them know that they will never be alone as long as you are there.

I like you

because of who you are to me...A true friend.

Remember:

'A good friend will come bail you out of jail....

But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying ...

WE screwed up, but we had fun! '

Proud to be your Friend!

Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence, and don't skip ahead.

I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper.

The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned...that we

should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned...that money doesn't buy class.

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so

spectacular.

I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated

and loved.

I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day.

What makes me think I can?

I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned.

I've learned...that the less time I have to work, the more things I get done.

To all of you...make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

Show your friends how much you care send this to them.

2008-02-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

be my escape?
I SCREWED CHINESE.
arghh...
so stressed
everythings falling apart
i cant not care about it right?
):):

ON A SIDE NOTE
you know what?
i dont even know if it will heal,
is it even possible.
i just have no idea what to do with this thing,
cant even say friend/relation-ship.
aiyahh.
i just feel horrible.
i wanna try to make up?
but there is hate going on,
and its definitely a horrible thing :S
i know you hate me like _________.
or whatever la.
i hear stories about you.
i just hear them one ear in and another out.
i trust you, i wanna give you a chance,
but would you give me mine?

why is this happening?
cause of that stupid blogpost
which should have never came up.
i should have just kept feelings to myself.
but well, joel yap you are so stupid.
you decided to post stuff out,
and look what happened.
you try to care for someone
who doesnt give a freaking shit about you.
and you still try to salvage it?
NAHH you are so freaking idiotic.
you probably cant understand her.
you probably will never do!
aiyah.

why put in so much hope into
what is lost,
what is in the past.
what is lost forever?
until the day of course...
where you forgive me?
putting the past behind?
sighh :/
next time, dont be so hopeful,
cause you probably will get rejected.
get used to it.

and i wont hate you cause you are still my friend (:
although how retarded and crazy it sounds upthere^
i just well...want to help, but you would say its useless.
im just sorry alright!
i cant do anything to make it right.
you might not care
but for me, you'd spare?
consuming hate is keeping sin,
our lives would be in a din.

my tears that flow,
nobody will ever know.
who would care,
nobody would dare.

taking my time to resolve.
taking my time to make up.

when will the time come?

jarynnn is smiling

2008-02-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

life is soo crazyy.

one, it smiles.
two, it frowns.
three, it gets crazy
four, now you see.
five we smile.
six we lie.
seven in heaven.

occasionally i have a certain smile, which i like :D
but sometimes its just plain BADDD.
sighh quite horrible la.
i feel so bad to you
putting you in a spot and all;
its like all my fault sorry.
i know you are ignoring me,,
but ~~you~~ we cant do that for long you know?
we still have to face up to these crappy things sometime.
i hope soon, if not it will feel quite horrible ):
ahwell.
i feel like kinda guilty!
causing you some of all your pain and all ):

haha.
i just want to be your good friend.
open up will you?
share somethings with me.
i promise i wont tell (:
i never do that.
i want to try to help you!
i really do...
but its up to you whether you want my help or not.
i know you are quite a complicated person...
sighh :/
but it does not erase your name from being my friend [:
i wanna try help!
if you need anything, actually anyone, i will be here, and try to help (:
i want to be your friend.

2008-02-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

HORRIBLEEEEEEEEE VDAY!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
imgonnadie.

goodbye.
(figure of speech)

2008-02-13T21:48:00.003+08:00

that time of the year,
where all are happy dear,
not much we have to say,
its Valentine's Day

its the day where most are glad,
unfortunately for me, i am mad.
all the commitment gone array,
in sorrow i lay.

trying to work things out,
in the middle of a solemn pout.
my faith gone low,
love has brought me on a toll.

so many places yet only me,
is there more to the eye i'd see?
my life has become of all sorts,
now, love? maybe not!

im sorry, i know you were there for me
but i think i could not be
there for you,
although i was supposed to.

i liked the call yesterday,
im sure it made you happy i might say.
its good we talked.
after all thats happened, a lot.

i thank god for having good friends like you!
it makes my day,
it'd really do!
friends forever i loved to say.

moving on,
this is for you!

just a while ago,
i was the untouchable,
what you thought so.

now its different I'd say.
closer friends, hope you like it that way!
i surely have, all day.
maybe more?
im sorry what my mum had said,
i hope it didn't make you red.
maybe it didnt make us you dead.

i want us to be more that friends (:
i hope you got what i meant
just give me your hand

i hope you get me x)
converse more shall we?
and talk more like we did.

this means a lot to me you know?
keeping feelings for so long, yo!
making me occasionally low.

i how you give me a chance.
and let's see how long we'd last (:
even though it might be a challenging task!

when i first met you,
i had a feeling that was new.
somehow i felt fill.

so let me get a chance to say,
on this Valentine's day,
Valentine, i may?

VDAY!

2008-02-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

STAN ASKED ME TO POST THIS:

I see a couple strollin down the street
They're so in love, there's not a worry
and to the clock they said goodbye, they ain't in a hurry

And sometimes I feel kind of lonely
ask myself where is my one and only
until she comes to me, I'll wait
until then I shouldn't be feeling this way

Won't let no Valentines get me down
or when Christmas time comes around
just cuz I'm alone right now
don't' mean I should hold a frown

oh in the meantime love is here you'll find
the simple things that slip your mind
the joy of hope for better days
you know that love can find it's ways

HAHA. SOUNDS SO LONELY.
what i will become if i dont go out
life is just so stressful
i wanna go out tmr!
but i cant la!
DD:

i must go
its so horrible.
i must go for both
im in a dilemma ):
bleahh ohwells like what the crap.
HAHA

KINDA HAPPY!

2008-02-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

i know this is so not a private place but oh well,
i will just type my concerns out here haha.
probably nobody will understand what im talking about :/
haha ahwell.

sometimes i do lie,
for the better?
i have no idea.
i guess if you have a good reason not to tell the truth, you could lie?

NO WAY. gosh i have been lying the past few days (a while back)
so that i could go out with my friends but like! URGH.
cannot :/ ahwell. its so weird i tell you...
haha i dunno i can like lie with a straightface.
EEYER.

these few days were kinda like an emotional rollercoaster.
from being super freaked out which i shall not specify why.
to being super stressed before the tests! AHHHH.
i literally grabbed nong by the shirt and pulled him around here and there TSKK>
haha. ohwell. i guess its great im feeling happy now,cause im gonna call :D

haha.

to somebody else:
its just so awkward you know.
i really wanted to go out!
but like you could not ):
ahwell. i think its quite ridiculous!
bleahh. i wanna go out quite bad.
till my freaking schedule changed.
its how irritating la.
and probably i dont wanna be the third party xP
haha. ahwell. quite sad la.
kinda thought about it.
rejection hurts?
aiyahh...why am i thinking so deep.
it all does not matter anymore, does it?
things weren't like how they were
smsing so much in class.
having quite a lot of fun xD
although like nearly got caught all that waddaheck.
haha. i dont want to drift so far away!
use your phone in class la! XD haha.
if you need to i can try to lend you my white phone?
haha. tskk.
why am i living in the past?

URGH.

2008-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

what has the world come to.
where some things happen.
i truly don't know what to do.
things change and are rampant.

my heart stays with God,
while others' might stay with Lot.
the serpent slidding around,
tempting those he's found.

making them fall prey,
he lusts and stays in a corner.
what has God to say,
than to watch in anger.

the purity disappears,
while God watches in tears,
he is disheartened
he still loves you and wants you to learn.

the world has nearly come to an end,
what can we do our dear friends?
to save our generation,
we've got to learn.

God grant us your wisdom,
so we can discern
between the right and wrong,
watching the indecent.

let them perish,
let them die,
they deserve it,
they deserve to cry

they deserved to be destroyed,
yet you gave them a chance.
but they never took it and toyed,
and you DESTROYED them.

(:

2008-02-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

a great contrast to the previous post.

dedicated to rachel lee :D

haha.
its been great knowing you,
in the past day or two
coming to singapore,
passing by the place of flaws.
yet bring back memory,
to where you want to be.
where you heart stays,
and never felt in disarray.
have more self confidence,
and not make it just a coincidence.
be proud of what you are,
how you've come this far.
in canoeing,
as well as befriending.
thanks for listening to me,
at my moments without glee.
at time when i was down,
happiness you help found.
i appreciate you as a friend.
i hope our friendship will never end.
and before you leave again,
make sure you come back, changed, never the same :D

2008-02-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

i was angry with he,
i told my wrath, i wish it'd flee.
flying around,
buzzing a sound,
agonizing me.

this emotion,
is never easy to mention.
terrorizing my feeling,
shortening my breathing,
you called for a ransom.

money was, in your meddled mind
mercenary was all i could find,
scurrying through the thoughts,
flowing, the tears, lots.
yet they weren't consistent, the rhyme.

finding love,
found at birth?
tearing drop to drop,
you loved me not.
i longed for a dove.

that curve facing up,
half full was the cup.
until, my smile took a while,
you destroyed it, creature of vile!
and made me scream like a demented cub.

HAPPY XD

2008-02-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

i just realized how many emo posts i had in january haha. i think i should go change my blogskin soon haha. SOME people say its so girl. HAHA. ohwell. whats wrong with having love! haha. (maybe cause they are jealous :P haha. school has been quite stressful, causing me not to use comp but to like do some random homework and like complete all of it by the freaking deadlines haha. i still got to do some of likeee chinese zuo wenn! i dont freaking feel like doing lehh :/ haha ohwell. do later la. I STILL GOT TIME. yay me! chinese new year is coming! hopefully can get like a week of school haha. then it would be like a mini HOLIDAY, where i actually dont need to come back for.

i managed to pon ncc a number of times. but like i finally decided to go for it yesterday haha. they are like having some preparation thingy for likeee the real day which is like 1st of march? i think they are like super kiasu la prepare in advance until like SIAAOO haha. HEH. i think the langartsA paper was quite easy, but like the challenge is in the timing that they gave, its like we have no time to even finish commenting la. like its so difficult to squeeze in all that you want to say in so short a period of time haha. i only wrote like 2 pages and 3/4. but i felt like at some parts i was kinda like narrating so like i guess thats quite bad la :/

I WATCHED SWITCHFOOT LIVE! ZOMGGGG! they are so freaking GOOOOD :DDDD haha. alright so like on thursday night, actually afternoon, rushed home to do some work. like it was INDEED TRULY a mad rushh haha. like immediately after school to a bus back, then did homeworkk (i tried to rush a mathh) some sets are really challenging to do eh. like they give you long long paragraph with so many numbers inside and expect you to work it out haha. then i met NICOLE, ZAC, and ABEL :D there haha. it was really cool la. getting into that mood concert mood. (but like we were soo early) so before the thing we went to have like a light bite. i finally ate at like orange julius, somehow have an idea, or a slight clue on what food they sell. had the hot dog as well as the drink haha. its quite expensive like 5$ just for the drink and hot dog haha. i spent MILLIONSSS of dollars (actually 7) yesterday la! its like omggg. spend so much money laa. i never spent so much before :/ haha. GETTING BACK TO THE CONCERT, omgg. their songs were sooo nice they did stars, a lot of oh gravity songs (I NEED THEIR ALBUM): haha. and like some oldies like dare you to move and many others haha. ohwell! i think they are performing tonight at the esplanade! I WANNA GO! but i got no money and probably will be at grandma's eating haha. HEH. i feel like im in a holiday mood now so high and like so ecstatic and happy wheee! haha. got to go for like edge later. i feel like playing tennis again haha. OH OH. there was this IHS presentation yesterday as well which i was like not very prepared :/ i felt as if i had led my group down but like THANK GOD :D with much thanks to the rest, i didnt do much work though...we got like a 21/24 haha. 7/8 i guess 81%? thanks a lot to shaun! and like the rest who did the most of the work! haha i feel quite bad la. not getting work done and stuff! haha. ohwells :D i guess i should go and wake my mum up sometime

I FEEL LIKE JAILBREAKING MY IPOD :D

HAPPY :D

2008-02-02T14:58:00.001+08:00

2008-01-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

sad,
mad,
defintely not in tact.

broken.
outspoken.
never open.

scramp,
vamp,
where will there be the lamp?

to remove my troubles,
my worries,
were they not to be?

it was my passion,
until.
those defamation.

i cant stand all these
it's making me pissed.
my heart so amiss.

lost,
hoarse,
to kill you with claws.

im just so b
ro
ken.

i just cant imagine it.
why do it and hurt me.
the outcome you did not see.

my heart you broke,
a word i spoke.
never enough.

i just cant take this inside of me.
its just infuriating.
so frustrating.

where is the love
cheer me up somebody.
tears will drip slowly.
drop by drop,
the agony, the pain,
all ignored.
left to face
the world
alone.

tiredd and sleepy

2008-01-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

haha this shall not be an emo post as a request from a lot of people!
hmm havent written in here for like terribly long la.
fyi, i was like kinda away at oep having fun at shanghai WOOTS :D
got to know my classmates better i guess.
enjoyed myself.
acted SLUT.
lol...hahah

FICTITIOUS FIFTEEN :D
haha birthday passed on 18th, thank you all you ppl for the smses as well as the tags or friendster, whatever, thank you a lot manxz :D really appreciate that, like how people thank you for being a great friend. be happy so that they can be happy ;) haha.
i really thank you for all these stuff la. haha.
thanks for the cakeee in the restaurant xD
thanks for the celebration DA YI YI!
thanks you mummy and dadddy for the party ;D
thanks zac, bran, shane, douglas, xuanqi, sze, nong, ben mok, stan, amanda, cheyenne, zan for coming to my party i really appreciate it.
and yes rachel!! haha the stupid random tagg haha. calling me stupid or sth crazy hahaha. its quite cool okay!
and you, thanks for always being there for me this past year. you turned fifteen first a few days earlier haha. (: i hope we can talk more than this. you know xD
and you. thank you for being such a great and like nearly best friend la. although you were only at the party for like 5 or so minutes i still thank you that you were able to make it :D sorry for letting you hear what my mum said last night! it was like not supposed to be heard ah well. talk again soon alright? and your phone! haha just take the sim card out and borrow my phone la (: take care alright. and dont make me worry so i wont make you worry haha. SMILE. and have fun in what you do.
and you keeping that secret haha. i doubt you actually ready my blog in the first place haha. you might probably come here soon. thanks for going out shopping the other day haha. we should do that sometime soon but just let our parents know. HMM. a lot of like people find you sweet eh! haha. i even had one friend that asked whether you and i were stead or sth! HAHA. xD was quite amusing. thanks for coming (:
ah back to school its crazy,
finished my history thingy and exceeded word limit by 300 words!! hahaha.
got some chinese projects coming along some TING XIE. BLEAH haha surely die already.

GOODBYE <3 Je T'aime.

looking out of the window,
staring and the sky,
so high,
where all my troubles go.

they fly away,
ever so free.
of to play,
not missing me.

quiet,
and tired.
my body says goodbye,
and sleeps tonight.

i love the silk,
i like the openess,
i love you
and you yo do too

2008-01-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

depressing
suppressing
angry

upsetting
infuriating.
and.

hating.
pissing.
hungry.

frowning.
moaning.
tiger.

staring.
scaring.
is.

running.
sprawling.
dead.

ENDING.

2008-01-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

where was the passion?
definitely out of fashion.
doing that examplarary
surely not contemporary.

coming to school early,
going home late,
it's turning horribly,
driving much hate

i dont enjoy
any of this duties
my life it does spoil,
i wish it would cease.

if this would end,
i would be better
in the crowd, i blend.
and i turn happier.

happpy and high

2008-01-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

its been a while,
i can tell.
where we used to get so high
and wished to fly.

on a cloud nine,
breaking rules getting fines,
was just about the thing
with a stylish fling!

walking about,
having fun without a doubt,
doing random and being crazy
is what i wanted to be.

taking a breather
from a killer,
seems to be insane
and a little lame.

it sounds impossible,
although plausible,
that is how i live,
and its a myth.

i keep it a secret
in my room i crept
out into the world at night
which was, ironically, bright.

bright with the red light,
bright with a fright
it kept my heart pulsating,
and gave my ears ringing.

something was amiss.
certainly not a bliss.
i just kept there.
and went no where.

watching quietly,
being a little sneaky.
i tried something new,
something of a fool.

it was wrong,
but just give it a try.
it was another step to his evil ploy.
price paid would be deadly and long.

he destroyed his life
with a knife.
and he died
on that fateful saturday night.

he lost his conscience,
and bubbling with remorse,
although God's creation,
it was a life lost.

emoooday.

2008-01-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

numberonelate.
numbertwocaught
numberthreeaccused
numberfourlost
numberfivesacked.

whyohwhy?

if i had not gone for the duty none of these would have happened
i could have just freaking went for ncc and get someone to replace me
tears nearly streamed down,
i was sad alright
its so screwed up luh,
you didnt need to make that fucking statement
seriously, its damn pissing
you cheer until your voice like mine then you talk to me
why cant you see? you blind eh?
seriously ah, dont be sooo ego, although you got that fucking post
argh. damn stupid
and not what?
tie, WHICH IS NOT EVEN MINE, goes missing?
well done you are shit.
seriously freaking shit
damn stupid la.
ohmygawshhh.
gonna die.
its that easy
just die
thats it.
stupid.
death.
world.
bye.

2008-01-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

i feel like a fool
and it's cause of you
this seems so stupid,
cause i think it's cupid.

its so fast
till it seemed it never last.
school has begun,
but has forgotten the fun.

lessons and teachers,
such scary creatures
indeed, it is crazy
cause of the you and me

if only there was not such thing
such relief it would bring
a happy song i could sing
ring-a-ding-a-ling!

i could be sombre
i could be blurr
but its not of late
that's enough said

running quickly and rushing
my heads heavy with a crushing
why does it start today?
is that all to say?

another day to pass
yet one more to last
through, we may be tired,
but we still need to be fired.

believe in yourself.
have a little faith
you might not need wealth,
step out of that cave.

once you have done that,
you finally have understood life.
and once, in life you strive,
you have made me glad.

happy new year!

2008-01-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

its been the time of the year again, the beginning, where people would say the year passed so quickly, so fast. a year, three hundred over days, 262800 minutes, and probably millions of seconds. time really passes quickly, unfortunately. there were times you wish time could just quickly pass by, and you would disappear and fade into the world. on the other hand, there were times, where we rush for projects, we want time to stop, just so because we can finish everything, catch up on our studying and things like that. BUT time moves on no matter what.

"24 little hours" quoted from a song of Jamie Cullum, mentions about time being little and small, and it does not move along as you wish and explaining what a difference a day had made. mainly about love

this year had been one of ups and downs. SOMETHING in the beginning in the year, those stupid auditions or whatever it was. i felt it was so crazy, all those backstabbing and stuff, and somemore just before my birthday, how horrible i felt. being rejected by my own team. it was such a terrible experience. i admit i was EMO, i was sad, i was upset. just before my fourteenth birthday to be spent like hell, i think it was crazy. aiyah stupid politics, and the quitting and stuff. i think it was appropriate la. i didnt want to spend my time with a group of people, or particularly just one person who sees me as useless, thinking he is so great, and with the arrogance. ah, i still remember those tears streaming continuously, running into the rain. probably from much of the exuberance and enthusiasm into bitterness and being barren. running out from the gate in the rain, and thank you ryan goh for chasing me out (: it was kind of sweet for you. i guess breaking down like that had not been such a great idea, but briefly i just decided it was it.

OEP at malacca was quite fun. 2.2 im gonna miss you like %^&*(*&^%$ you really have thought me a lot, getting to know my new super great friends like bestie! hoong, and i guess everybody else luh. it was really a great, close knitted class. enjoyed myself thoroughly, with nong stan and ben mok too! ah. amos ming kang, everyone la. chongker, everyoneee. haha. hmmm getting back to oep. haha. from sitting in the front of the bus. being quiet. being silent, eventually opened up to this group of people, felt a little awkward but not anymore. seeing how close the rest of the people were, i just made up my mind to go join them. i sat with them at the back of the bus, got to know the ppl better (: i think it was hoong bubbles chongker and me and basil. yeah all of us sat at the bus. it was quite fun lah haha. we really had a ball of a time talking together, knowing one another in a close and personal way. the various activities, the occasional spirit of being rebellious, cleaning that house, the hotel, not being too bold, did not follow the rest in climbing out of the window, rooming with aloysius. WOW. so many things at one camp haha. aloy falling sick. trading songs. sleeping. swimming, waterpolo. FUN. haha. talking frienships, building relationships. CHEATING-swapping the cards with hoong and sabo-ing ppl hahaha. it was quite fun luh. then going to the funny tribal dances.

my birthday, a holiday! haha. after oep in a high spirit, we decided to go out to erm plaza sing or sth. where amos bubbles hoong and i! we went to meet at macs or sth. i think i was late hoong was waiting for us. or sth. there was the ben and jerry ice cream haha i got treated or sth (: haha. they wanted to get me a present but i think i said no. haha. it was a really fun outing going out together. EH. let's do that again next year! haha. i think it would be quite fun luh, wait it WILL, as long as we are enjoying ourselves. not spent by doing much things. my family and i then wanted to go to shaslik or sth liddat but cause i think i had a tummyache or sth i wanted to eat sth light. so we went to cofffee club ate and went home. i think i got some clothes from parents haha.

cause of my tummyache, i did not go to school the following day! haha. amos said that my dream came through and i was like whatever lah hahaha. in the beginning i guess i was super guaiii, like sitting in front of the class, listening to teacher like a lot a lot, my art was quite terrible in the beginning. learnt from david lui, eventually improved a bit i guess. had much fun. haha. the first term report was quite good lah hahaha. i think that was about it for that week or so?

OM. mr bill chia the great coach! haha. thanks for being such a great coach, treating us to the PIZZAs. and giving us those pep talks. although you did not know much about OM, i think you did a great job (: haha. ALOT OF OTHER STUFF. i wish i could talk about but i got to sleep soon ):

jia, shaun, paul, isaac, rohan, marc, joel! TIM!!

you guys have taught me a lot. i will never forget you how great a team you were, although you were the sort of people who were quite slack, we eventually managed to slug it through right? through much persistent screams from sir, as well as madam and TIM. ah. yes a great student coach, one of the best (: haha. thanks for parting with your chi-ching and coming with us to US, i really wonder what we would have done without you. haha. really, a blessing to us :D ahh. jiayuan! your mum bringing all her nice pork ribs and the food. ohhhh my goshh. the food was damn nice. and you were also really friendly (: you were truly a great chinaman, and an asset to the team, we really enjoyed having you a part of us! shaun! the leader, which al the others wanted haha ( i wanted to be leader lehhs ) haha. anyway, you were quite awesome, bringing the team together, although slacking a bit for your softball and stuff. haha. it was quite fun knowing you, chatting with you haha (a bit luh not much!) PAUL, haha. i still remembered how you managed to piss everyone off by going for your tennis and not helping us out! haha. you and being sadistic with your teachers, nearly getting that demerit point, arguing with teachers and stuff! haha. you have trained me with my tolerance! haha. quite fun knowing you la. isaac! ICEBERG! FATHER TIME! haha. the person which supposedly had the deeeepest voice haha. it was quite good that you were on and all that, YES your spon it was like so good! haha i think i learned a bit from you! haha. you are so good la. you will go far (: (although i doubt that you are reading this hahah) you contributed a lot to the team! your mum too ;) haha. ROHAN haha. i still remember you headbudding me haha. you and being really pro at soccer. moving steathly at night, making it so difficult to see you! haha. and also being a great devil, i didnt think you were that evil though. haha. but in the end i think you were great. haha. none of us would have done a better job, although paul with have been quite a great slut! hahaha. MARC, you rich guy, painting with your nice fcuk teeshirts, really joke around like nobodys business la haha. quite fun lah. you all claimed to have made me like slack, although being on was quite fun, but in the end still being asked but in the end still being asked by the seniors to do work! haha. TIM. i wonder what our team would have been like without you, i guess you were kind of like the one who anchored our team together! haha. ahwell, so it was a blessing that you came to help us. if not we would not have even got passed nationals la haha.

collin! rayan! dhanesh! imran! being so good at your spon. and teaching us all. haha. we miss that. haha. where are we gonna find such great people next year? haha. awhh. ahwell, i wished i could talk to rayan more. this year, i hardly got to talk to you la )): sighh. nehmine can know you better next year okay? haha. when you finally go for your army and stuff haha. COLLIN this saturday on alright? haha TSK i havent even got courts yet! haha. ohwell. haha. a great om senior as well as choir one! ah. we ALL will miss you alot! haha.

CHOIR. gosh theres so much to write i think i will write it out another time, i better go and sleeep now. of course there's like SHANE too! i really thank God that i got know you this year. and you being such a great friend (: haha. i need to write your card! haha.

AND GOD. thank you for such a great year, i thank you for all your blessings. i thank you for taking care of me. of my parents, how my dad nearly got to an accident. its all your blessings, and through your grace that we are made the way we are. although, i did not really do much devotions, you still rewarded me, dear LORD, please help me to do more of my devotions please? thank you for giving me a fantastic year LORD, and i pray oh Lord that you will make 2008 an even better one where i can learn to be more like you and in your stature. i pray oh Lord for my friends and that you will take care of them, and guide them through your terrific masterplan.

AMEN.

EOY camp.

2007-12-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

This year's End Of Year camp had been an enriching one. I would say that it was a great one of fellowship, friendship, leadership and building relationships. It indeed had been enjoyable going through the hectic schedules of pumpings, hit-its, cheerings, even more knock it downs, various sessions and BBQ and movies. I would have lied if i said the camp was boring, indeed it was packed with fun filled activities. Personally, i felt the cheerings were not very taxing and all, but it was quite fun - which is defined as losing your voice, screaming cheers at various high pitches and low pitches (which were rarely heard), and basically just going all out.

The sessions were quite enriching. The first session by Madam Cassandra Kaur had been quite interesting with her beginning her lecture on hair, and i felt so guilty having kept my hair at such an inappropriate length. One of the phrases that she had mentioned where accountability comes in line with power really hit me. It reminded me of the movie spiderman, where i recalled his uncle told him "with power comes responsibility". Power is something that is given to you, it can be added it greater amounts, or it could be taken away when you abuse it. Thus, when given with this power, we should make good use of it, and not abuse it, and use it to the best of our abilities that God has given to us.

The games which were organised by the games committeee were quite fun and there were various learning points for them. They were very prepared, and had indeed put in a lot of effort into the games. I truly applaud their effort and I am happy with the games. I would like to highlight the following game which i found to be quite fascinating and exciting. Brandon's Bowling Bash. I enjoyed that station, bowling using your body as well as gaining momentum. I feel that courage was needed for that game as we needed to believe in yourself, as to continue running when we had reached the soapy area. I had not much faith in myself, so i slidded off when I had reached the front part of the "bowling lane" so i was not able to get much points. In the end when I tried the game again, it had indeed built my confidence and I have learned that self confidence, as well as motivation is important.

its been a while

2007-12-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

hello world, its like i have been isolated
from this lively world,
where once i populated
until my dreams started to fold.

i was very carefree.
i was once so energetic
so very happy
and of course enthusiastic.

then camp end of camp.
i had high hopes
which sucked me up like a vamp.
and surely i could not cope.

thanks max for the hug.
it cheered me up slightly,
and into earth i lug
my heavy helpless self miserably.

i really was lost,
i was torn into a billion pieces.
completely broken, absolutely cross.
like a crumpled shirt with many creases.

why do i suddenly feel introverted
when i am so outgoing.
i think i just disappeared.
i become so quiet and timid kind of thing!
(so much for that marketing talk with the confidence and all. and like suddenly just disappearing!)

i feel i have changed
to this complete alien,
which is so deranged
and never flamboyant.

hiding in the crowd.
never wanting to be seen
always soft never loud
that sort of thing.

i want to be what i was
happy and enthu
if not i would be really lost,
i guess that's what i really want to do.

psalm 38

2007-12-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

The Psalms
38

The Prayer of a Suffering Penitent

A Psalm of David, to bring to remembrance.

1 O LORD, rebuke me not in thy wrath:

neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure.

2 For thine arrows stick fast in me,

and thy hand presseth me sore.

3 There is no soundness in my flesh because of thine anger;

neither is there any rest in my bones because of my sin.

4 For mine iniquities are gone over mine head:

as a heavy burden they are too heavy for me.

5 My wounds stink and are corrupt because of my foolishness.

6 I am troubled; I am bowed down greatly;

I go mourning all the day long.

7 For my loins are filled with a loathsome disease:

and there is no soundness in my flesh.

8 I am feeble and sore broken:

I have roared by reason of the disquietness of my heart.

9 Lord, all my desire is before thee;

and my groaning is not hid from thee.

10 My heart panteth, my strength faileth me:

as for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone from me.

11 My lovers and my friends stand aloof from my sore;

and my kinsmen stand afar off.

12 They also that seek after my life lay snares for me;

and they that seek my hurt speak mischievous things,

and imagine deceits all the day long.

13 But I, as a deaf man, heard not;

and I was as a dumb man that openeth not his mouth.

14 Thus I was as a man that heareth not,

and in whose mouth are no reproofs.

15 For in thee, O LORD, do I hope:

thou wilt hear, O Lord my God.

16 For I said, Hear me, lest otherwise they should rejoice over me:

when my foot slippeth,

they magnify themselves against me.

17 For I am ready to halt,

and my sorrow is continually before me.

18 For I will declare mine iniquity;

I will be sorry for my sin.

19 But mine enemies are lively, and they are strong:

and they that hate me wrongfully are multiplied.

20 They also that render evil for good are mine adversaries;

because I follow the thing that good is.

21 Forsake me not, O LORD:

O my God, be not far from me.

22 Make haste to help me,

O Lord my salvation.

dear lord, thank you for giving me such a great Psalm of David. i really thank you for giving such great friends and family! i thank you that i am able to stay in a house where there is internet, thus being able to write this post lord, i thank you for your countenance and your peace which surpasses all understanding to be on me Lord. i love you. i really want to be your best friend lord. (: but im just really sorry that i have not been able to do that for the past 14 years. its just that, i dont feel anything lord. dear jesus, im so sorry that i never put your first, despite of hearing all those surmons lord. i want to put you first in my life. i want you to be the first and on top of everything else lord. then my life would be perfect, with occasional flaws. i thank you for picking me up when i have fallen i really need you lord. please come into my heart again. to be my best friend (: thank you. AMEN.

200 (25.12)

2007-12-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

(dedicated to everyone)

thank you for being in my life,
a part or parcel
of it, for in your i live;
i have built a heart in a sand castle.

i am gracious for you in any way,
you truly have been special
to me any day.
i'm sorry if i have, in a way, been irrational.

my heart really goes out to you,
i am really happy you existed
you know what? i really do!
thinking of you, my heart melted.

i appreciate everything you have done.
in this time in this season,
when we were having so much fun under the sun.
thanks for helping, its my turn.

especially you who really brightened me up.
this year was truly with much ups and downs,
when you poured joy into my cup.
in your life, i donned your crown.

thank God there was you,
if not i would not have much idea
what to do in this cruel
world, with so much pain and fear.

because of you i have smiled more,
i can face up to situations without a wink,
focusing and coming up with a thing
or too cause you opened your door (:

it had been a new world when i stepped in,
thought it would have been different
but what a fun time it had been (:
there were many lessons learned.

many stories left untold,
kept in that corridor of memories.
like a time capsule, in time i wrote;
a composition of you and me.

bitter.

2007-12-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

why does life have to be sad
why must it be like that.
the feeling's just terrible,
my heart's condition is well horrible.

the time has come,
for me to leave,
time waits for no man, i shall run.
heck it, nobody, in me, believes.

its just so strange
its just so upsetting
all my problems range
from pain to pain, oh my, frustrating!

my little heart can't take ain't no more,
my heart has turned bitter
not forgetting, sore.
with these enraged tears, i could cry a litter.

i wish i were out of here.
out of this stinking world
full of agitation and fear.
my emotions are in a pool of whirl.

pretending; putting on a facade.
i try that smile,
it's one that cannot be bought.
ah damn, it can't last for a while.

i dont believe any of this is true
it seems to be like a dream.
where the world is cold and cruel
if only, life was like creme

life would be soft and sweet
life would be full of laughter
and so much less than meets
the eye, but this is my world, bitter.

on the way back to osaka

2007-12-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

ahh my holiday is gonna come to an end real soon ):
haha. but im still having quite a great lot of fun.
we were staying at niseko, sapporo!
its called old man creek.
yepp.

i got a cookie monster capp ;D
ask me to wear one some time.
its damn cool luh,
more like cute actually hahah.
i cant wear it in singapore actually ));

its like sooo....thick and ppl will say im weird haha.
lol. damn tired now. i think i shall write a poem.

tolerance. WHY is it so challenging?
hurt and anger it does bring.
the pain and the anguish.
you dont care about this.

im just so frustrated with you.
you know what?
i really do.
all this hurt all this blood.

you dont care about it and more, me.
what if i fell?
you only care for thee;
i bet it never rang a bell.

why cant you put a smile
on that sulky face,
you, honestly, just drive me wild
and bring be ablazed.

cant you be more friendly?
and lend me an ear.
is that all you can be?
all in those trembling eyes of fear.

looking down on me,
looking at this "useless son"
i think that's the best i see.
come on! are you done?

i cant see the reason why
do you not love me?
would you rather me die?
maybe that's how things should be...

me and my lonely world

2007-12-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

weird and troubled,
with my dreams crumbled.
i can't see the light
in this lonely flight.

i seem to walk alone,
on this voyage away from home.
those memories will last.
though they fade so fast.

i think im in a dilemma.
between one or the other.
its just feeling horrible,
me and this lonely world.

a place of solitarity,
a place of solace.
me and my spirit of sparsity.
you cant stand the look on my face.

in a desperate attempt,
i would try,
to save this useless life -
lest i die.

in this season of winter,
my heart turns cold,
it turns bitter.
and then it folds.

one by want, to the two.
its just freaky you know?
i dont go by the rules.
i would not tell you why so.

my life is a secret.
peaceful and quiet.
with no disturbance
and with good, it turns.

no more emo more of happy.
thats how life should be.
smiles instead of tears.
courage not fears

anguish.

2007-12-13T21:18:00.001+08:00

a moment of time today,
i felt rather dismayed.

this rush of anguish,
the feeling amiss.

indeed i was tired.
defintely fired.

i was slightly sad,
maybe a little mad.

i was ablazed,
my mind was stuck like a maze.

i just could not take it anymore,
i needed a break through, that door.

my life was a flaw,
my heart was sore.

i felt hopeless,
i was lifeless.

it all seemed forever.
never would i succeed in that endeavour.

for you i cried,
for you i sighed.

was it not enough?

JAPAN :D

2007-12-12T09:24:00.000+08:00

firstly, i must apologize for all the typos cause the keyboardss are like slightly different.
so irritating luh EEK,

alright. i arrived on like SQ626 at like 5 am in the morning ;D it was quite tiring lol,
watched the bourne ultimatum and some other movie,
we transited in thailand which had a really huge air port haha,
bangkok luh ahhaha.

anyway, we went mostly shopping the daybeforee,
ytd we went to the aquarium and the ferris wheeeel,
and did some shopping at night.
if you want sth from japan, TAGGG i will try to read it,,,

and i am going to universal studios today
gonna be like really funnn :d
i took quite a fair bit of photos post it up soon,

have fun while im away
please dont do stupid things i pray
as you read what i say
have a nice day ;D

wait for a while,
i wont take long
if you need me just dial,
and i might sing a song!

take care and dont cry
as if you not talking to me can die,
smile! and dont frown
be happy and up not down!

hiatus.

2007-12-09T15:13:00.000+08:00

im gonna be on a hiatus. going to japan with family and some friendds hahha.

i will be back on the 21st

yeah at least gonna spend christmas in singapore.

you people be happy alright (: smilee take care dont be sadd. SMILE. dont emo.

ahh im gonnna miss youth camp. the speaker is so good (xuanqi lucky you ): haha.
i wanted to go but too bad hahaha.

BYE.

reminiscing

2007-12-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

thinking back,
i recall,
that responsibility i did lack,
that badge and tie, a bad call.

why choose me?
did they see anything special?
did they know what i would be?
or was it just irrational?

i believe the decision
was made, cause they did see
the spark, but without much precision.
somehow i just lost that key.

i turned for the worse,
i turned bad,
i was certainly not a blessing, a curse
in fact.

i was transformed.
i had indeed changed,
i conformed.
part of the worldly range.

a lousy christian i would
label myself, just like before.
"change for the better" I could
try to say, waiting for you to open that door.

thank you Lord to see me through
those darkest hours.
indeed you wonderfully do.
thanks for being there when i needed you.

there were times you seemed so far away,
i tried to call you, you didn't reply.
so i thought, just close your eyes and pray
some would say, in my bed i would lie.

speak blasphemously i did,
cursing and swearing, all those foul words.
yet He brought me through these heaps.
all those lies i had caused pain and inflicted.

~-~-~-~

(to someone)
please take care alright?
even though your endless plight
might never end,
God will help you with his might hand.

He will guide you and direct your ways,
not just today but till the end of your days.
smile alright for he is near,
so there is nothing for you to fear. (:

tired.

2007-12-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

each step of the way,
every new beginning of each day.
i feel so drained,
and occasionally, pained.

drifted from this world,
in a few hours of sleep.
after you sow,
is that what you reap?

just a few hours out,
your brain tires,
you aren't happy and pout
you look like you played with fire.

mischievous and all,
you seem so playful,
seems awkward and unusual,
you don't know you'd do.

you seem a little strange,
not feeling yourself.
even a little deranged,
you dream of wealth.

money is your wife,
you can't get by life
with any other woman,
you would need a knife.

"that's it!" some toot
would say, just taking life away like that.
you see that root
of all evil, is it not sad?

how about for a change,
try something new, something good.
something conventional, not strange.
anything civilised, not rude.

or how about something new?
just live for a reason, for a cause
it surely isn't something hard to do!
use your brains to think, or it'd be a lost.

to my special seniors,
thank you for always being there
i wish you well all you genius!
to part our ways i can't bear.

come back some time alright?
and we would catch up.
do something safe, not triggering fright,
tears i shall pour into a special cup (remember those glasses :)

goodbye i shall say,
it won't be the last,
take care and have a good day.
returning back surely is not a daunting task.

short postt.

2007-12-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

short.

the world is short, but the word is not.
time may seem like its a lot, but actually it's not.
life of 80 years seems long, but i think thats wrong
a 4 minute is equivalent to a single song, so 180 songs in a day
if i could give an accurate say.

i would not like to be blasphemous and say humans could fly,
but definitely humans to die,
in a matter of time,
anything to those leaves of lime
green, is life fun? i hope sigh :/

a munch of white chocolate Californian roasted raisins,
and some think its a sin,
would that be considered greed,
or is it just what my stomach would like,
if it deemed right.

time is not short, there is not a lot,
its time to say goodbye, to you and i.
thanks for being such great friends since the beginning when we said hi;
yet just in a short twinkle of and eye,
we part our separate ways and bid farewell, do we not?

do we miss that special time sometimes,
and just leave that relationship hanging?

outside looking in

2007-12-04T19:23:00.000+08:00

You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

189

2007-12-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

cool i blogged so many posts already. but this one will be quite short haha
a lot has happened the past few days, i have been away from home luh haha.
at my godmas house and like moving around kinda things haha.
i think i wont blog so long haha.

HMM thursday i stayed at home,
alton came over, and we played tennis and took care of phoebe!
then on friday we played tennis again and had gone to daniels house.
we didnt do much there haha. just used computer and stuff like that?
not very fun luh haha. and then there was...
PHOEBES SHOWCLASS. TERMINAL THREE.

terminal three

looks so unreal right?

haha stuff like thats. haha really nothing very interesting
saturday arrived. ALTO MEETING :D

phoebe and her class

phoebe, i and zen

phoebe balancing ;D

so cute right?

yeshh me and my sis :D

phoebe and sakura (her friend)

random picturee :D

we didnt take any photos. a pity :/ hahaha. sighh
i was like super latee luh cause i was playing a bit of tennis before that.
yeahh haha. like 5 minutes after i arrived evelyn had to leave haha.
quite sad luh :/

we had starbucks after that, stayed around talked a bit haha.

and sze min WHEN ARE WE PLAYING TENNIS? haha. rayan hasnt replied yet i think you have to call him! haha.

and ermm we visited godmas new house ITS HUGE I TELL YOU :D haha really enjoyed myself there, its like 3 floors, HUGE swimming pool the rooms are like WOW. haha. look sound system around the house. GLASS. :D like gym/recreational room. and like HUGE ROOMS :D you should see the design and the HOME THEATRE SYSTEM :D hahaha. gosh its so freaking cool lorh haha. damn haha. i wanna stay in a house like that. the paintings are like really nice too!

right sidetracking back to the post.

sundayye. church as usual went for my fathers bros wifes wedding. sighh :/
quite sad luh you know so solemn one.
then after that we went to the crazy christmas concert with selena tan and friends!

mrs wan and seniors and us :D awhh. i feel so tall lol haha. lengthy body ><>

shall post some photos.

eek this is like taking so long! sighh ://

smile a while,

2007-11-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

i think im falling in love with corrine may's voice,
so sweet, so distinct.

ahh. hmmm
thanks to SOMEBODY (shant say who) who is really a procrastinator,
i shall stay up today...hahah. lol.

a while ago i still recall our fights, seems so childish.
come back soon would you! haha. you are taking forever.
the clocks ticking while my hearts racing
hurryup(:

ahh. anyways.
i shall take the quiz now.
or maybe not yet haha.
maybe i shall write a verse

the hours, the minutes, the seconds tick so quickly
so does my heart beat so quietly, so shyly.
fun, is a subjective word, it could be fun to you but not me.
return quick, and you would see the happiest of happy.

hmm right.
okay quiz from rachel/brans blog (they dont share a blog hahah. just both of them did the quiz)
its a really old quiz though i might do two or three quizes. depends on how long you take! hahaha.

1 fondest memory you have in your lifetime.
fondest means like greatest memory right? joining alto i guess. i mean its like so fun getting to know all different sorts of people, becoming such a close-knitted section, 2006/07.

2 people you'd like to thank.
thank for what? sounds so weird haha. but at this current point of time, i guess thank you seniors for always being there for me, especially coll! haha. its been great knowing you! haha. and like ermm. kana. thanks for being such a great and close friend for so long (: and so manyy more. especially the best section in choir :')

3 things you would want to do now.
hmmm. erh i think this is an easier question. alright. SLEEP. you know im like a piggish person D: yess i wanna exercise play tennis-run-go shopping-watch a movie-hang out-not stay at home and like alto party! haha. i think thats more than three ;D

4 people that left the deepest impression (include reason why.)
hmmm. quite difficult lehh. wahh only four people. can i put more, i would put the whole world down :D haha, nah just kidding. alright. 4. lets see... i shall be general alright

1. thank you GOD. without whom i would have not been here at all...aww.
2. thank you DADDYMUMMYPHOEBE for being such a great family. that counts as one group alright hahaha.
3. thank you for FRIENDS :D haha. like om, prefects, choir, and in any other special way i know you (: thanks for being there for me. cheering me up when i was down. thanks for never leaving me. thanks for staying up to keep awake when i was studying for my exams. thanks for all those late night conversations :D thanks for everything (:
4. thank you for 2.2! haha. BUBBLES HOONG! omg. why do you all have to change class! stan and nong! we are in the same class next year haha. YAY! haha. quite funn. gonna be a hell of a class except for the nerds haha.

5 photos/ pictures that you like.
i dont have my comp now using mums one haha.

altos the <3

om :D haha. gonna miss it ):

alright. i only have four pictures alright. couldnt find anymore.
i wanna add in the one of hoong me and chongker :D
awhh 2.2 oh seven.
darn. i wished it could stay like that. one hell of a class :D

6 strange things you've done in your life
got 4th for om worlds, got 3rd for om worlds, dropped my phone a million times, i was a former swimmer :D, not slept a whole night :oo (so sarcastic), i wear pink :D, OM - for nats my costume was so bad that it nearly snapped alright! it was damn embarrassing haha.

7 things that you like in 2007.
getting to know more friends, like rachel! haha. its been quite fun knowing you, meeting you on your birthday! hahaha. getting to know fellow prefects better, and of course OM :D, i hated you all in the beginning but i guess you guys are like really great now i know ;D, choir people the new ones! the year 5s haha. you guys have been great x) yay i played tennis a bit more, screwing around in class using phone and all haha. becoming more pai kia x.x hahaha. doing crazy stuff in class. THAT POWDER INCIDENT :D haha. tsktsk. stupid luh. pissed teachers off SO BAD.

8 things you want to do in 2008.
go to olympics at beijing. get to know my class better :D, get to know my friends a lot more (kinda building on relationships part), try to remain more of the innocent and less of the getting corrupted, heh, SIT on the a380. GOSH. i really wanna do that! do really well for exams a 42 at least! if not a 45, and work my ass off studying, get WORLD CHAMPS! haha. i want that dream to be realized leh. darn.

9 people you want to do this.

pretty much anyone? haha PRIS :D heh. sze! (if you read this anyway hahaha) anybody luh, im free and easyy haha.

miss

2007-11-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

it seems to be for a while you have been away.
my hearts a bit hardened and saddened too,
why did you have to go? i wished you could stay.
without you, what am i to do?

just eighteen days, it seems little at first,
but now it seems so endless.
come back soon would you?
and tell me about all that was cool!

france, italy or netherlands so far away.
the scenery, oh so beautiful
1st december i cant wait for that day.
it would probably be so fun, oh so cool.

i once mentioned about trust,
i shall just rely on that and question no more.
but i really wonder how long it would last.
when you see the light, you see my heart - that door.

please hurry would you (:
get the butt and plane moving as fun as fun can
on that plane you flew.
on that land you ran.

but would that be enough to catch my heart?
which is running faster than the word fast.
time might not be on our side but
i might just wait for you maybe just till dusk.

seniors dinner!

2007-11-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

yeshh yeshh. i shall blog about seniors dinner and i guess thank you to all those seniors who kinda made an impact on my lives, sorry if i dont blog about you :// haha. not that you didnt make an impact on my life or anything, but probably its just me and my poor memory :S. haha. im also looking for a darned job as well :// haha. anybody! tell me if you can find one. i wanna work for at least 2 to 3 weeks luhhh

alrightt here goes:
(altos):

aw sze min! haha.
thanks for being such an awesome and superb senior haha. i still recall really clearly one year back, when we still were coffee-club-ing hahaa. at this point i think where all the dinner ppl were gathered together sitting, in i think some rectangularish table with like 10 ppl there haha. lets see if i can still recall on that table....you, clement, ian, mervyn (ithink), poser (who was just there hahaha), jack, collin.....HMM, thanks for all those cards, the dinner comm ones, christmas, bithday etc. like so manyy one de luh, i feel so bad :/ havent given you any yet, dont worry you will see a christmas one coming soon (JOEL YAP, YOU BETTER REMEMBER!) haha. ahh well. thanks for being a really super great friend; all those constant rides home (thank your dad and your mum (she really looks young! hahaha)!! hahaha) HMM. lol. hmmm what else was there. yeahh! i rmed last year dinner! when you were trying to imitate clement and his chicken thingy! it was really really funny alright! hahaha. i think it was hilarious, and also when we supposed to go trick-a-treating. haha. i still wanna go treat a treat alright! haha. im sooo looking forward to next saturday! haha. AND AND, run run run and shop shop shop, maybe we could play tennis sometimes as well haha! i wanna go shopping ): and watch enchanted! sorry about the other day...haha stomach flu :// darn. haha. alright.

moving on...

koh xuan qii!
thanks for being such a good SL, i mean not just about how good you are in the musical sense (MISS GRADE EIGHT! hahaha. i still remember last year when they announced it i was like super shocked that you could actually play grade eight luh haha. you must record yourself playing the piano and maybe singing sometimes!) and all that but probably on the focus on how good you were on that FUN side. haha. especially in organizing all those special alto outings! i still rmbed one of them where we supposed to watch a movie and it turned into like starbucks but in the end we still watched the movie haha. its really fun and COOL having you around, it would be really sad once you leave us! AWHHH. haha. anyway, i think i recall our talk about CAREERS was it! to become some world class singer and like get a super hit track and like maybe play EP, while you play the piano :D haha. sth random like that if its correct haha. but its so cool though. AND BEARBEAR (ps i wasnt really a fan of him i think haha) just ppl like john see and wan feng were quite crazy about it, weird haha. thank you for all those cardsss! its really nice. thank youu (: i must must do some cards this christmas or it will become a waste haha. hmmm. i think there were probably billions of other things! YESHHH i REMEMBER! you must teach me how to make your potato salad! haha. its really NICE! gosh. must learn how to cook there before you disappear into the us or cambridge! hahaha. gosh. its so sad you are gonna part away with us so fast! these two years really have flown! OH YES. tell me when you find a job alright! i need one too): i could fake my age as 18 hahahah. (totally impossible) i still remembered when you all wanted to watch the zodiac and like dressing me up as a 16 or 18 year old luh! haha. it was sooooo funny although you kinda really didnt end up doing that!

NEXT :D haha. so long luh. eek my small fingers are gonna die of typingg!

ethel sng! hahaha (tu)(tu)
haha. as you can see, probably you arent reading this anymore though, but heck luh i will still write sth nice about you haha! anyways, you can observe that i have put the (tu) thingy haha. that turtle emoticon in msn! haha. thanks for being such a great alto frienddd :D haha. and the super good barbequer ahha. LASTYEAR! alto party the "halloweeen" one haha. the date and time were so not in tune with the real date! hahaha. i rmbed you cooking the CHICKENWINGS :D haha. and also the ermmm. meat was it! oh yeah starting the fire and all that with kwang kai (EH. where did he go eh did he suddenly disappear or sth? gosh! hahaha) anyways, thanks for being such a person to gauge height with ( I FEEL SO EVIL SAYING THAT:X ) but im sorry alright! haha. during haven last year i think i was 160 cm :D hahaha. then like i suddenly started growing and im 172 noww! haha. thats like 12 cm in around one year, and erm im still groowingggg alright! haha. so funny lol. there was also another time when ERMM. YES. when i got my turtle during march last year from the hols hahaa. i think you kidnapped it did you! haha. no wonder i noticed that it suddenly disappeared out of fin-air. haha. HMM what else was there eh. lets see...ahh. got to like think hard! yeah. i rmb playing cards with you as well. during haven! YESH. our gambling DEN! YES YES YES. i tell you it was insane luh. all of us would squeeze in into the last door of the cpa and like lock the door and like do what we were not supposed to do :/ hahaha. i still rmbed being pumped my bryan or sth because of that luh! hahah. HMM.

PHEW. breather. i hope this coffee high can like help me hang in there for like as long as possible WHEEE! im high

THEODORA HUANG XINYI! TOMATO!
(maybe not so tomatoish after all hahah). thanks for being such a great SL then VP. alright lets go back to haven days again. AH. gosh, makes me really want to cry. awwh all those memories its so nice(: hmmm, i still recall when you tried to work with us on our tone, being the horrible blaster into the really nice round tone in the various haven songs and all that! i still understand and hopefully able to execute those stuff (sounds like nothing! but it means a lot alright!) definitely deep inside, you know its deep engraved in us (although we forget it at times! haha) and alright, HAVEN. the loacker chocolates and the card (john see and i compared and we found out) that was like nearly identical! haha. thats why i understand why you decided to combine with sze today instead and not write your own (shes better at "paraphrasing"!) feel so mean haha. anyways. thanks a lot for the loacker. haha. i didnt eat it though, my sister gobbled it up like really really quickly. i still am in awe, so amazed how you managed to merge the most awful tone the most off keys and the fewst and smallest section into the most united section! :D i think its totally amazing how you were able to pose your leadership skills, although you were really shy and of a really kind nature. i think you could probably be a lot better if you were to exert your authority a bit more! haha. i think ppl would listen to you a lot more. you are one person i would respect, being so great in your piano skills, and like half way through your prelims still doing your diplomma in music, how you were able to balance your time and still get like 42 points! its so crazy, yet you managed to do it! (im not saying you are crazy :P) please come back sometime soon to influence the alto tone, and not be too bright like janice hahahaha. and rather make it whole and round :D we would appreciate you coming back soon! thanks for being such a great VP this year, helping us to NEARLY achieve a gold at syf (most ppl said we deserved Gold ALRIGHT! haha. i guess quite a far bit is actually your glory (im not boosting your ego! you are really good :D) and also for the first time, getting a silver in the jc section. not forgetting about genting where we got a GOLD :DDD (although losing to nan chiau TSK.) not exactly losing luh, but WE still are improving, thanks a lot MISS VP of MUSIC :D

gosh this is so long hahaha. now moving on to like other ppl.

COLLIN HO! this is gonna be really longgg.
haha. i think you are probably packing now getting ready to go to cambodia, last minute AS USUAL, and i still remember when the first time you were early! (WHEN YOU WERE BORN, i think sze can say the same thing about it! hahahha) i think if im not wrong you were the guy that introduced me to coffee club, gosh its such a freaking niceee place luh. i so love it! its like really really nice, gosh the mudpie, the soft shell crab all those nice nice food! haha, and not just choir but in USA as well! ahhh. OM. gosh (another long blog post! hahahah) anyway, in usa, 2006, the pioneer IB team who won first in nats and worlds, being the super-dee-duper team. probably the best ever! hahaha. must teach me some more, i wanna be in the best team ever as well! haha, anyways, all your spon answers prolly gonna be used and used again, MY PRECIOUS! (in that oh sooo raspy voice) and then the, every cloud has a silver lining, all those stuff. omggg. ahh. ANDAND the screaming in the hotel haha. i think i rmb how you were recounting it, but somehow i dont think i can actually remember it, its so awkwardly strange. gosh but i have to say you om guys including rayan, woah you guys are like really nice people! i wish i could talk to the rest and catch up with them sometime soon! i better do before they all go bald hahahaha! the screaming in the hotel YEAH I RMB! yes. we were across rooms and then from like one room into another- when we werent angry with each other at all! haha. and gosh the shop shop shop shopping! OMG, hahah. it was freakingg nice luh. shit. haha the pink teeshirts and the levis jeans. i think its so cool, and i will forever think it will be. my pink teeshirt is like so screwed up now luh :// the aeropostale one haha. and then also STILL got, wah so many things to talk about luh haha. I WANNA SHOP with OMERS :D we get the best deals from everywhere! haha. i kinda hated this years shopping though i think it was rather rediculous haha. we shopped so freaking little luh haha. kind irritating though :/ heh. must shop with you luh! and run and play tennis. (lol this time must really do alright! not just say. tskkk so irritating one all words no action :/ tskk) i could get courts at my house all you neeed to do is to drag your body here! you could walk if you want too! hahaha.

that was so long :/ i think i got 2 more peeps.

chris ow!
haha. im so dead now :/ hmm i still remember cam whoring in usa haha those stupid photos haha, eek i couldnt pose then but now...!!! hahaha. i think i probably learnt the skill and picked it up quite well haha. HEH. YESH. mr dinner comm kinda everything in charge haha. the admin guy and all those things. i still rmbed you being a high C (im putting what i learnt in prefects trip into choir!) being very conscientious and meticulous haha. getting all those details down! being such a super NEAT leftie haha. AND yes i do rmb our times in USA. i briefly do anyway, when we were sitting next to each other in that bus! i think it was really fun! heh shopping and all that! YES, i rmb you in that oakley shop (when i thought it was like really expensive then but actually now come to think of it i dont think it isnt that bad; quite reasonable in fact :D hahaha) HMM. and also in singapore, TOO! when i got to know you well, or at least better i guess i think you were the guy who was doing all those vasks thing and like building the dance wall and the eyepod haha. some legacy which has been copied by some other schools HMMM hahaha. i hope no really good saints are reading this (if you know what i mean) haha. feel so evil. (BREATHES IN) yeah haha. anyway, thanks for bringing to your church that time haha. i think its kinda like quite nice although i think i still feel that i prefer my church better (ask xuanqi :D hahah) but i guess it was kinda "quite an experience" kinda feeling learning about other churches, how HIP the pastors are and all that quite cool actually hahaha.

ALRIGHT. i think i will do last one. social butterfly!

cheryl sim.
i dont really know you that well but i guess i will talk about last years haven it was really freaking alright calling me cute like a gazillion million million times! haha. it was indeed really freaky but haha. who minds being called cute? haha its quite nice actually. ANDAND, this "cute thing" spreading from you to clement and the to soonks hahaha. it was quite freaky alright. haha. but nevertheless i dont think it was that bad. HMM. the thing about social butterflies are that you probably dont know them really well, but they liek know the whole world! hahaha. HMM. i know you are close to one person, JESUS! hahaa. probably the closest guy you are too! YES. i REMEMBER, there was the dinner comm where you were one of those MCs (i really needed to get an MC listening to all the jokes! hahaha, SERIOUSLY) haha. thanks for being such an admin person as well, you were right? i rmb there was like ermmm 9 ppl in the committee (I STRANGELY REMEMBER SUCH STRANGE DETAILS! hahaha) ahwell, and also i still recall the ermm, CAMP COMMITTEE. i was so shocked that i was chosen as like head of the camp luh, i tell you it is quite nerve-wrecking to have so many responsibilities going on at once haha. but overall, im still taller than you (those stupid heels :/ hahaha)

JOEL YAP IS DONE! WOOOH.
i doubt anybody will actually read this though :/ or at least the whole chunk! haha.

TRIP 2008

2007-11-23T18:00:00.000+08:00

heh trip had been really fun haha.
like getting to know all the different people from prefects,
giving me like a really different impression from the original ones,
some of them in which made me think twice about on making friends with them,
the other wanting to make good friends.
i guess its quite nice to go for trip luh, im really happy that i had gone for it and like had not stayed at home and went for the Christmas concert thing, eek so stupid, they didnt allow us to join it luh i felt really upset, or like most of it at least.
anyways, i still feel it was totally worth the time although i felt ill now...
i just went to see the doctor, i have like stomach flu BOOO! so irritating and sad luh ahwell :/

anyways, i think i should blog in more content about the trip haha. but i would firstly, like to thank the following people who have made trip possible:

1. Mark
thanks for being such a SUPER-DEE-DUPER tour guide, and more importantly ACS family member haha. i think you have done a really great job and like trip would really have been impossible without you around, thanks for teaching and educating us during the different activities, and of course being such a great friend too. and the taxi ride too i feel bad :x

2. Glen
haha. thanks for being such a good assistant tour guide or someone to like see us through most of the activities, although i did not talkk to you so much, i know you remembered me as the screamerrr! haha. tsk i screamed so much until so many ppl got irritated! haha. i think screaming is like really fun. haha.

3. Sir and madams.
haha. thanks for being such great teachers! sir, although you were really HIGH-D-ish with us sometimes, we knew that you all meant us well at heart haha. although it would kinda be the last year in the board, we want to wish you all the best (: sorry _____...i accidentally hit your shoulders! thanks for being really concerned for us, especially when applying the first aid. my arms finally better from all those rope burns haha. HMM.

4. ALL THE PREFECTS.
definitely without all of you there would be no trip! hah. so ridiculous right? lol...HMM. but i guess i kinda made friends with some other people haha, cause i like dont reallyknow them that well haha. but like zacary! it was FUN sitting beside you during trip haha, and buying GREEN teeshirt. haha so random luh getting a green one, lol. it would be my first lime green one haha. im gonna wear it sometime soon, and also thanks for being that bus ride buddy! haha. anyway, thanks bran for being the bus ride buddy as well haha. it was really fun! getting high while singing songs, singing our falsettos, haha, or head tone lol. camwhoring. OH that super dirty picture. tsktsk. haha. pass to me sometime soon alright! i want my photos! haha. thanks to SECT-C haha. me and my lameee names haha. tsk. you could have guessed where it had came from. HMM marcus, tim lim, hadrian, ben sim, zi hao, jonno, joel lee, jonathan, matthew and jaira. the sec 2 J people! haha. its so coool haha, thanks for being the SECT-C-iest people ever! haha. and thanks to the bridge people! its like so funnn! haha. like Michael, Zac, Jaira, Andrew ong, jonathan! (thanks to shaun for your cards haha) thanks to the other prefects from team diane, TURDS, HAWT!

woahh such a freaking long dedication! haha. i guess i will just briefly talk about my injuries during the various activities, alright on the second day there was the ermm, high ropes element thing where i got like ermmm rope burn during the "leap of faith" haha. where like the rope went around my neck, it was freaking painful alright! haha. and alsooo, the abseiling, thank you instructors! haha. i inverted myself in the beginning! it was so scary alright! i was absolutely freaking out lorrhxzxzx. hahaha. hmm aRh LEEiAnxzxz w0rhxzxz ;D anyways, during the flying fox it wwas like really fun luh, haha, although i think i kind of got mentally traumatized, i guess taking one step at a time, taking deep breaths were not that bad haha. it was really funnnnn though! i wanna do flying fox again! haha.

i had really a lot of fun, shall post photos another time its really fun luhh! haha.
and of course THANKGOD :D if not, none of these would have been possible.

strange.

2007-11-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

it just seems all so strange to me,
why do the closes to me seem so far away,
yet those people far away seem so near thee.
is it me or is this just, well a strange day.

a friend which i recently knew seems to be quite close of late,
i just cant seem to figure out why,
is it true or is it fate?
i just cant figure anything out, SIGH!

i wish these doubts would slowly clear,
ah, these doubt inside me i fear,
for the better or for the worse.
i surely hope this isnt another one of these curses.

i want all these to disappear
i just cant keep on holding on to these insecurities, these doubts.
this just makes me fear.
indeed, this makes me shiver deep inside, as i pout.

i feel unlike myself, i feel so strange,
probably i need to a little something, i need to change,
i wonder if this thought will ever end,
and may God place me in his special plan.